Now I am Finding the Time...

Hey peeps,
Ahhhh...it feels so good to be able to find time to write again. Actually I am still in office and finished my works. And somehow I felt the strong urge to write. Err..le patron, puis-je réclamer des heures supplémentaires ?

And as usual, I have no concrete plan for my writing. It's all jumbled up. Let me think....
1)Moving out and into a new condo...AGAIN!
Oh yes, this is my 4th move since the beginning of my relationship with Superman. My current owner sold his house and gave us ONE month notice to move out. We searched high and low for THE PLACE, and we found it after diligent day and night googling and asking around. Actually this place, called Aman Height, we have already viewed it before we moved into current home. But somehow, we didn't like it last time. God knows what makes us gugugaga this time around. Guess because of the superb facilities with OK price! We got our keys last night and suppose to start packing up tonight. Erkk! Just a gist of what's waiting us;

2)Jalan-jalan Non-Stop
Almost every week, I since March, I was on the road. Be it on personal or work purpose. It was a nice getaway, especially when I can claim every dime spent, but when I get back into the office, the pressure is somewhat the same or more. Enjoy my travel pics and lil explanation I :)

 Vietnam War Museum-Some souls are too devil to be called human.

Look what they did to these innocent men.

                                             Vietnam, Mekong River-with my travel buddies

 On board Sapura 3000 vessel- I hate the way I look! So gemuk and senget.

Singapore, Universal Studios-Where I felt magical and spend till drop

There's few more pictures but I don't have the time to upload now.

3) I never lose a pound and kept adding

Surprised? Not? Yeah me too! Everything doesn't fit properly now. I am already obese. Clap clap clap clap! It's depressing but I guess my desire to eat surpass the desire to get thin.See that face at Universal Studios? Compare it with this 2008 pic.

 Can you still recognize me???

Ahh...talk to you again in next entry. For now, new tasks landed in my inbox. Toodle doo!

In the Mood

Its going to be a lengthy entry. I have so much in my mind that I have delayed sharing with all of you. Get your popcorn, nescafe and ciggie. You may sleep and go to toilet before finish reading them. I don't mind, as long you spend time and read it.heheh:)

2010 no more!

Summary of 2010;

First year life as a married lady.

Truthfully, being married hasn't fully absorbed in my mind. I used to think that having a ring on my finger is a definite stability in terms of relationship. Means, he's all mine and I'm all his. Turns out, it's more than that and a bit lesser. Confused? Besides having to mind that whatever we do will reflect us as a couple, there's more and more responsibility especially to each other's families. Its much more complicated and to understand your in laws than your own partners. Its like tip toeing not to break the thin surface. However, I am glad my in laws are a bunch of cool people. I hope Superman felt the same for mine. On 7.11.2010, marked our first anniversary. I wish to say we fully understand each other and everything was in synch. Not so easy. No its not. Every couples are unique. And on the last day of 2010, we reflected our relationship as husband and wife while sitting in his car in our parking lot for almost 1 hour. We realized and admitted, we are two very different person and we wondered, laughingly, how the hell we ended up marrying each other? He he. My friend, Cik Mas, was really worried as if this is the sign of break up. Actually I am glad we managed to admit our differences and guess what? We narrowed down what makes us connected. 1-Food, 2-Good families who accepted us the way we really are. Other than that, hrmh not so much, complete opposites!

Mission 2011: Work on understanding each other better and try to make our huge differences works. And personally I have to start reducing the "I" mentality and change to "we". Thanks Hana, for the advice.

Special message to Superman: Let's not jump to the next phase before we pass this phase.You know what I mean Darling:)

Career

Changed to a new job came January. I thought I was on top of the world. My boss was a lady boss.Nice change from a string of male bosses? NOT. She proves me that female bosses sucks. Hey I may be feminist. But, this oh-I-am-so-famous-kononnnnn lady boss really spoil the image of a professional and equal-to-man-emotionally that I support all the time. Maybe it was my bad luck to have her. Maybe there are good ones. Hopefully! After 3 months I said goodbye and back to supportive, calm and professional male boss in an established O&G company. What a relieve!

I love it so much here. I get the opportunity to do what I like. A nice diversion from monotonous daily secretarial tasks.  I managed a Teambuilding and Year End Dinner Party for my project team. My committee and I was praised for a job well done. All of the headache and stupid fights was worth it! In the end, almost all of my team mates had great time. Oh maybe one or two who weirdly rated us 2 out of 5 star while others gave at least 3! I don't know what's their real problem. But hey, hear the majority! That's how we are right? Democracy yo!

But as I just started to feel the grasp of my career path, My boss announced that he is retiring a week before the Teambuilding. This 17th Jan 2011 will be his last day. Suddenly, everything that he attended from that day onwards became a major attention. I am now planning for his farewell party.

I'm getting the hang of doing events. It's so much fun to plan every little detail. I became closer to my team mates. And the ones who used to resist me, ain't so resisting these days. Nice!

My new boss will be a French guy. I am not sure what I really feel. Hopefully he's as nice, dedicated and fair person like my current one.

Mission 2011: Learn French so I can't understand my new Boss better.

I Hate My Body Except my Big Fat Round Ass! :)

I was ignorant to the fact that my body ain't beautiful anymore. I can't see my chiseled face in photographs! I always look bloated. My tummy looks like I am pregnant for at least 4 months. It's not anybody's fault when they say "Berapa bulan? When are you due??" It's totally not their fault. Although, I felt like smacking their mouth right then. I felt hopeless. Not that I didn't take any measures to reduce. But it hasn't working beautifully just yet. Why? Because I was in a rut. And I was happy AND sad too much which put me on diet roller coaster. My big appetite, accompanied with ever food-loving husband and friends, caused me to have no control. There's a saying : "You are what you eat" and "You control your own life" kept ringing in my head. Its hard to understand why it never gave much impact to my behaviour towards food.

But then, after my SIL uploaded a picture of me during our family holiday in Penang recently, shot from a very unflattering angel, a clubbing night with my slim friends made me feel like an old cow, my supposed to be hot dress didn't work like magic in the Dinner Party picture I received last Friday and today, a sales rep of Bizzy Body gave his card ONLY to me when I walked pass their booth in Jusco after lunch with my officemates, I can't take it anymore. This is too much for me to swallow!

Dear Allah, help me! Dear friends, help me! Despite all the love and awesome career I have, I still feel shitty whenever I look in the mirror and see the fat girl!

Mission 2011: Reduce weight, hoping to get back to 58kg, Top size M, waist:30 by 31.12.11..Approx 2 kg monthly. I MUST do it!! 

to be continued..

Time Kills Me

Today, I made a vow to become a housewife, for at least half of Sunday. Last night my MIL and SIL came and they left with Superman before lunch. I promised myself to finish folding the washed clothes. A BIG mountain of them. The worst of household chores for me which I always delay until end of the week. In one hour, I finished everything!

I waited and waited watching the TV,Tweeted,FB-ing. God, the clock ticked real slow!! Proven, I can't leave my fast phase, nerve-wrecking life. The feeling of waiting is worse.

On another story, my boss announced on Friday that he's leaving the project, and going for semi-retirement by end of the year. I was feeling shitty. Really shitty. The prospect of working with the future boss is really downing. I am not quite sure how I would handle him and even myself then. This is the first time I am having boss-changing experience, within the same post. Its not even a year. What's worst, he is the best boss to me personally, and to all those on the project team. I believed that I was in a really good track. I could actually see my short term future there. With this, I am not sure. Having a bad boss is worst than having a bad job, based on my own experience. However, I am trying to think and FEEL positive about this. Maybe he's not as bad as what was gossiped.

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Superman just called, he fell from his bike. Gotta fetch him at his office. Brake faulty it seemed. Oh no!

Really Inspired

HELLOOOOOO!!!!!! Selamat Hari Raya!! Do you notice anything different about me?

Blog hopping is a bliss. Peeking into other people's lives. I get lost absorbing the informations and their drama.. and for awhile its not all about me.

Its Malaysia Day today. I love it because its a public holiday, in the middle of the week. Tomorrow I took another day off my Annual Leave allocation. Damn, until April 2010, I only have 11 days balance.

Lately, I have started looking for a greener field out of the country. Just in case my contract is not renewed by early 2012. I get jealous+hopeful when I heard that some of my buddies are working abroad. And most of them are professionals like engineers and consultants. I wonder whether secretarial job will take me anywhere? Perhaps I have to take up a pro course with MAICSA and become a Company Secretary instead. Hell, that's a very serious job! Suit-up girl!

I know, nothing beats Malaysia coz I am so used to this beautiful country and its culture. But then again, I want to know. Satisfying my curiosity or rather adding up to my life experience by living and working in another country. Plus, currently working with lots of expats, it made me yearning of the perks they are receiving. Ha ha! Tonnes of money bebehhh! But Superman said if only me get a job abroad, he has no qualms to become a househusband. What?!So not sexy!No darling, I ain't coming back home to see my husband in apron...daily! No no no!

 Yes, now I have hair bangs. And I almost finished the whole jar of Raya cookies:)

These few days I was hit by cooking bug. I am not usually domestic. I prefer to stroll around shopping malls and dine outside. This is new. I was telling Superman to get me an oven. A baker standard oven, okay! Maybe I can start a baking business from home. Make money to invest!(Yeah right..)But I also want a bag for my wedding anniversary gift. A Coach bag. And Superman pretended that he didn't hear me. Grrr......

Sad story about Sosilawati case. You know..the murder of the cosmetic millionaire., What went wrong with these lunatics. Putting money over people's life?

I'm itching to go somewhere. My mother in law said I can't sit still. "Duduk-duduklah rumah" she said. The thing is, I need to get out to make myself tired. Or else I can't sleep at night. Darling, lets go out!

More Stories to Tell.As if I'm a Staar!

Hold your stinky breath!

Yeah..I know you have stinky breathe if you are fasting during this holy month of Ramadhan :) Most people do. But its okay, you will be rewarded with blessing by Allah. Something that I think I need alot these days. Forgive me Allah for I have sinned. For choosing to sleep than pray to you in the morning. For choosing to succumb myself to all things shopping without realizing I am wasting my precious money for my need to feel beautiful(and the kick from buying stuffs!). For not thinking that I should have donate more of my money to the needy than buying more and more of earings, shoes and bags. I couldn't help it. Help me Allah. Help me to control my weakness! But don't take away my love of cupcakes and chocolates! :)

Hi guys! Right now I am abusing the WiFi connection at my BIL house to reach all of you. Last five days was terribly busy. My boss was not around on Friday, but I couldn't even have time to glance through my Yahoomail. Sob sob....

Lately I'm starting to feel a lil bit of burnout. Just a little bit! I think I need a long holiday. I'm starting to think to take long holiday after each 3 month. Waaa...if only its that easy. For the 3 months, I only managed to take 1 day off twice. And one MC!

I wonder what it feels like to work abroad? I am really curious. Anybody care to share? I wish I am really brainy like engineers, docs and all those professionals where opportunities working abroad are abundant! For a secretary? Any chance?? I was told by a colleague that those mat salehs working in Malaysia, are mostly paid at least three times salary paid for locals. And they also get superb benefits. It made me think, are our professionals skills and knowledge are not competitve? Why don't we get the same amount of salary if not benefits? Unfair don't you think? Maybe that is why many Malaysians choose to work abroad?

Right now, I want a cupcake. Ciao!

What Did You Missed About Me ...recently?

Do you miss me??

I do..

I mean those times when I was freaking full of ideas and couldn't wait to write and tell all the world. I don't know myself these days. I stare and stare at the screen to write something really exciting. Guess what, I lied that I completely absorbed with my work. There are some good 10 minutes or so sometimes that I really2 wanted to write something, but not even a word moved my finger.Frustrated. I went reading other people blogs instead.

So whatever happened to me?Okay, just the important ones:)

First of all, I had my most anticipated day in June. Yeah people, my belated birthday and housewarming party which happened on 26.6.2010. Although my body was strained at the end of the day, running like mad woman, making sure everything from food to deco was in order, I couldn't have asked more. It was perfect to us although it has some imperfections. Like, I forgot to pump up the baloons(actually I misplaced them and couldn't find it at all, untill after I cleared up the house!). And almost everything except the deco was not done from my home. Lucky me, my mom could cook to cater for that day. I woke up early that day, just to buy flowers at Pasar Kajang. The theme was Orange+Yellow. After I brought them home, I realized, I don't even have a vase to put them in! So they ended up in a pail. What a waste!And Wiz managed to bake the cakes and muffettes on time, of which I had to pick it up myself since she was terribly busy with her other orders and Superman had to stay at the house to receive the guests(What???!! I had to pickup my own birthday cake???!Darn!Superman, next year I ain't going to slave myself for the cake again!:( ) This year, I planned my own party, to celebrate my eldest sister,SIL and nephew birthdays as well as the housewarming party. It seemed perfect! The mixture of our friends and family seemed like a tiny wedding to me.

My humble set up, due to the lack of baloons!

Crazily nice cakes!

Birthday boy+girls

My oldest friend. Since kindie!!Now she has a lil daughter, Ms Aina. 

But, the parents seems more kiddie than their own kid eh??

The party pack

The party people:) Azea, can get enough of the food! haha!

Just some of the flowers that I managed to squeeze in a lil bottle.Nice?

On Thursday the next week, I had to attend PAC, the final stage before the government decides whether you are fit to be working with them or not. Everybody was telling me to go. First of all, its a hard chance to come by. And if, only if, I succeed, I'll become one of the most highly respected government servant.With all the perks its a waste not to grab. Guess what, I couldn't make myself go!

And on last Friday, i planned a surprise birthday party for my dear boss. Complete with a big birthday cake made by Wiz! Everybody seemed like enjoying to the max with the food, candies and deco. It was a very hush hush thing. Imagine, about 100 of us, we were all crammed up in the 'huge' meeting room, in dark, while waiting for the Boss to enter. I was waiting outside. When he arrived I said something like "Boss, I need something from you. Lets discuss inside here" while I pushed open the door. And he saw his banner, and he said "Shits!" And, in a split second, his face was filled with bubble spray! What a relieved when it was all done. Again, I was lucky that mommy could cater on that day and I had some of my colleagues to help out.

I learned from all the parties that I have planned, its all about timing and budgeting. And always always have plan B. I wonder whether I should venture into party planning business shall the day came when I no longer enjoy office works. This adds up to my list : makeup, hantaran deco, baking, wall arts. What's next?

I guess that's all folks. I am still in office. I want to go back. There's still few work stuffs stacked up on the table. But I don't care. Today, I am bloody tired. Yesterday, I stayed up until 9pm, having Dominos pizza dinner at my cubicle while my eyes was on the screen and one hand typing(oops, kantoi I ate with my left hand!erk!)

So adios! Merci!

One Month Milestone

No no no definitely not about pregnancy!

Today marks my first month in this lovely huge office.

I am terribly happy. I got my first salary yesterday. And now, after quite sometime, I could really enjoy what I was paid for as now I only pay quarter of the toll and petrol from what it was since January. Parking allowance is a very welcome joy! I bought two pairs of work shoes at Vincci last night. Nothing fancy. Just to reward myself. Most of this month budget is to buy stuffs for my condo. Turns out we have alot of things but not so much of important and decorative ones.Ikea can you please give awesome discounts just for us??

If only..:D

Miss You!!

Hey you readers/paps/friends...(pergh perasan ade paparazi nak tau sangat pasal hidup aku!lol!)

I miss you.

Today, it felt quite overwhelming.

With works piling up. And now, my boss is back from his vacation, I definitely must amp up my serious-secretary mode:you know, pretending to be seriously engrossed with something while looking on your computer screen, hands on keyboard!;p hehehhe...

Pity Superman. His most anticipated interview this morning was cancelled. He was already there. Stupid. The hiring manager made last minute decision to postphone without acknowledging him before he reached the office. On positive note, it gives him more time to get more infos.

This morning, no, I mean everytime I was listening on radio which is on Mix.fm, I was always forced to listen to one annoyingly stupid commercial-GUOCERA TILES. Its hard to explain here. But in case you really want to hear it, turn on the station, or stream online the show here. They sound ridiculous. Very scripted and lacks personal touch from the voice talents. I think, I will have to post its record here, just so you will understand what the hell I am talking about. Anybody noticed?

I'm turned on by lemon yellow shades lately. Maybe because it is spring season. That's the idea for my housewarming party theme. I can't wait. It will happen in June, which coincides with my nephew's birthday. Actually, me, my eldest sister and my SIL as well as few friends, was born in June! Perhaps it will be a good month for celebration. Yeay!

I brought my gym pack to office today. Planned to workout after office hour. Its just in Level 1, in my office building. Available FOC for all staffs of the Company. What excuse can I give for not working out eyh?? But really, I'm kindof tired for no apparent reason. Can that be the excuse for today?:D

How are you today? Are you happy or sad? Why dear?? Talk to me: mariambdlzz@yahoo.com.sg

It is Weird to Say Hello?

The fifth day in this Company, I still don't feel settled.

I thought, sitting in my own private room in my old offices, which is of course totally comfy, is a relationship barrier with officemates. An invisible wall. But perhaps I was wrong. I used to easily warmed up within few days with my new found colleague.

I thought now sitting in a low-rise cubicle should speed up the ice breakers within few hours. Hell no! Right next to me, there's a cute mat salleh guy(Superman, he's just cute, but totally not my type..don't worry). He came in the office yesterday after his offshore duties. And now, after one and a half day, both of us never said a word to each other. Both didn't know each other's names. I don't even know what he's doing. This is bad. I blame it on my part too.

My brain was freezed. I couldn't recall names. I couldn't recall what their positions are. I can only recall their faces. OMG! And my mouth couldn't start a decent conversation. I feel like an idiot! I always imagine this very me right now, are the kind of people which has very low self esteem, thus, very shy and always sit at the far end corner or refuse to participate in social events. I am so not that kind of person. Well, at least as far as I am concern. Since when did I have this 'very low' self esteem?!! This frustrates me like nobody business. Its like a new kid trying to fit in a new school. I am not trying to be the popular girl. I just want to fit in nicely, without any drama.

But i'm lucky that most people here are very nice. I haven't seen nasty remarks been made about anybody yet. Still figuring out the social hierarchy and the office culture here. Maybe, it takes a cuppa coffe with my mates to extract the topics. It seems like they don't do gossip on the floor. That's very good!The girl that I'm taking over the place has been serving the project for two years at least, thus the most senior secretary. And i'm the greenest newbie. There's at least 15 more secretaries, I think? I wonder how I'm cut out for the role. Big change, big responsibilities indeed. But if i'm hired, means the Management trusts me so much aite? Whoaaa! Pressure is ON!

Update on the condo-hunting: Found another vacant unit in the same condo. Tonight, we will be meeting the owner. Praying hard, the same stupid thing not to happen again.:) Aishah...lil Sara can come and play! yeay!

Today is Definitely Different!

I think Allah heard my prayers last night.

Today at office is very very nice. Still no works yet. But at least;

1) My desktop is set up. I have access to everything except SKYPE, FB, FS and MYSPACE. At least I can blog, blog hopping and chat on YM! yeay!!

2) I made friends! Not just one or two, but additional 9 person today. Hehe. We even went out for lunch at the Mines. They all just received their salary, whereas I am still waiting for the golden call from the old office. Big chance I can only enjoy the cash next week:(

Last night, Superman told me that his mum and little sister will stay with us at our new place until their new house in Klang complete its renovation. The current house has been sold and they have to move out by middle of May. That could be a good three months. Did you hear hesitation coming from me? To be frank I am quite nervous. I am usually good with people. But I am not sure about in laws especially MIL living together. But thinking that Superman is currently living with my family since January, and he seemed perfectly jived in, I think I should accept the situation with open heart. Yes Darling, I'll do it for you and to test myself. At least I have a nice swimming pool to relax shall I need a time out(but am feeling shy to wear my almost naked swimsuit with them around. A reason to shop for cover ups??Huhu).

O&G, so what??!

Today marked my first day working as part of Malaysian O&G industry. Am I proud of it? YES. Why? Because its hard to breakthrough. And I made it. Alhamdulillah.

But, I was so curious why majority of people was so gung-ho about it.

The answer arrived in the form of written texts, that is, the T&C for Local Employees from the Company. OMG. Helluva of greatness!! Staffs are paid  bonus if they stay with the company for at least 3 years! Talk about motivation for staying in the very same environment for such a long period of time. And other benefits are too good to be true in early Monday morning. I already made a promise to myself to stay focus and be positive. Come what may! :)

However, my first day is not glorious or energetic. My boss is overseas until next week. His secretary(she was transferred to a different department) who is suppose to handover to me was on MC. The desktop was not prepared by the IT officer. In the end I spent RM20.50 to buy magazines to fill up my day. By 4pm, I finished reading all of them, and went to the reception to borrow the newspapers. My neck was all strained. I didn't make any friends yet. Went to lunch alone. Everybody was so busy doing their works. Nobody was gossiping or on Facebook(still not sure whether it is allowed or not). There were about 200 people on the floor. Wonder whether everybody knows each other? I text Superman and few buddies every now and then. The environment was so different when I worked in ASTRO. One thing good about big companies like this is, everybody mind their own business. Good to focus on your job. But really, is it really healthy to be all about work at workplace? Aren't we all human?

What's your worst experience at workplace?? Tell me.

Perhaps, tomorrow will be a better day:)

p.s : I still love condo. Superman, please change your choice. I love you:)

Why is the Clock NOT ticking??

At least that's how I feel. Its 11.36p.m. Just finish packing up my stuffs for our Penang getaway. Super excited. Got myself a brand new goggle for the trip although my old one is perfectly fine. I just don't know why. I think I should have grab a new sunnies or hat instead. In my dreams since I just blew away my tiny budget. Was thinking of carelessly shopping beach dresses at the Ferringhi.

But then, I'm not going there so soon. Superman's going to drive up there first on Wednesday, early morning. I'm not going to see him until Thursday at Penang airport since he will start his journey there from his mom's home in KL.Starting to miss him already. Full of anticipation!

Annoyingly though, my boss haven't sign my UNPAID LEAVE form I submitted 2 weeks ago for this holidays. I don't care. I'm going anyway as she won't pay my leaves regardless if it is sick leave. Still weighing my options to complete my 3 days next week. My heart's completely thrown out of the office. Now, I regret why I was so baik hati to come back to the office after I got my last pay. I worry that she won't pay me for this month if I don't come back to the office again later. Its going to be a wasteful journey then. And I will have major problem to pay up my bills at the end of the month should she decided to get back at me. So, should I continue being baik hati or take the plunge??

Knowledge At Its Best

Truth is, sitting in front of computer all day long is an ideal job for me. However, my body is not designed for that as I'll feel restless, like something is not properly done looming in my head. I need to get out, see the world, and have fun with life. That is why I quit graphic designing as my day job. I turned into secretarial instead. Hoping to be able to meet numerous types of people and also hoping to stumble upon a boss who requires me to travel, giving a chance for me to see the world, all expense paid. However, that has yet to become a reality. 

Today, I'm watching Sex and the City reruns to kill off my time in the office.Immersing myself in Carrie Bradshaw's life as a writer, I'm feeling in love with the lifestyle. So free and yet so grounded. I always believe your career is your lifestyle. We can't really separate our 9 to 5 life and outside the office. Somewhere somehow, especially when your are a workaholic, it will continually intertwined. But being a writer like her, you write your life observations. It is really real. I wonder if something like that is meant for me. Writing in this blog, is already halfway from what it is. Just that, I am not getting paid. Have I wasted my time greatly? Is it time to have a career switch, again? Maybe the biggest question is, do I really have what it takes??

On a completely different story, I went to this blog, and found few interesting new words to my liking. I now knew that I am an ailurophile. And I have an effervescent persona. And I am a never a lissome girl. I need an elixir to lift up my spirit! he he...word is power!

Will I DO It Again??

Yesterday's Saturday is one of my worst Saturday in life. I had to go through long hours of exam papers for the sake of a PTD position in the government. I didn't know whether the questions were actually hard or for the fact I didn't study for it makes it hard. But I think I did pretty well. But well, I wouldn't put on ANY hope for it. Thousands of other Malaysians was having it too. Scattered all over Malaysia.

Overheard a conversation between few girls outside of the hall after the 2nd paper(Maths).

Girl 1: It was hard, wasn't it?The maths sucks. I didn't have enough time to answer all! (phew...not only me then?)
Girl 2: Yeah, last time it was harder!Even the first paper makes me cringe. Hehe...Been through few times...This time is easiest. (Really????!!)
Girl 1: Is it???? Oh my. How many times have you tried this paper??
Girl 2: This is my 3rd. (Huh??I felt like giving up already!)

My brain was over fried by the time I finished it at 4:20pm. But it was fine when I saw Superman downstairs waiting for me. Ha ha..

So...will I do it again??   NO.

Surprising

My boss and I finally sat down and talk about my resignation.

I can understand why she's upset. Because its all very sudden to her. I pity her for having to find a new replacement so soon.

Somehow, we managed to have a calm discussion. Isn't it better if she's always like this. Well, maybe partly because she lost her voice due to sore throat. Still, she haven't confirmed my last working date. But definitely it will interfere my honeymoon planning. Damn!

Rough Day...Let the Days Go Faster

I had a rough tele-conversation with my boss just now pertaining my resignation.

Its really sickening when your boss questions you...and makes it sounds like you are stupid, unprofessional and irresponsible. Very harsh accusations indeed.

But she deserves every single word I replied. Don't you ever think that you are a boss, you are surely cleverer than your staff and you can undermine her with your words and money. And yes, if you can't respect people, don't expect to be respected!

Officially, AKU MELUAT!

Still Haven't Decided!

Yesterday, my boss read my resignation letter. But she haven't given the feedback yet. I hope to hear from her today. I appealed for one week early departure and for her to waive the one month salary repayment for that matter. Yes, my company requires staff under probation to give one month notice OR to pay up one month salary for 24 hrs notice.. Well, I'm quite confused with the situation. I've given the office one month notice. They can't ask me to pay up right? But, how about if I leave one week earlier than the suppose actual last date? Will I be subjected with the penalty? Is it fair if they ask to pay for the prorated 5 days? I just hope that I don't have to pay anything. Anybody who knows how to handle this matter, please advise.

I'm quite excited to leave and start this new job. Although its not as challenging and unique working environment like in my current one, I think its time that I think of stability and flexibility. What I mean by flexibility is to be able to enjoy life besides work. My mantra is, I work to live not the other way round. Currently, 90% of my life is about work. I hope to reduce it and to be able to pursue other interests as well, like business or study or leisure activities. Balanced life, people.

What about you? Do you crave for balanced life or you prefer to be workaholic? And why?

My Boss Must Be Mad!

Well, I've got  a list of stories. Let me start on last weekend.

1. 2nd Hot Air Balloon Fiesta 2010
My company opened up two booths at the event. Well, I don't want to talk anything about my company and its products. I just want to talk what I felt. And yeah, share some lovely pics with you.
It's the first time I saw real hot air balloons right in front of my eyes.  didn't go for a ride although the tickets was undoubtedly cheap. RM10 for adult! Well I'm scared of heights.Ha ha.. It was a bloody hot days. I was really pissed that I had to go there and my boss expected me be there, just in case anything happened. WTF? My colleague and I cleverly took turns without actually being there. You must be wondering what the hell I am talking about. Go figure.

 The highlight of the event was on Saturday night. I brought along my brother and Papa so that I won't feel bored. I'm supposed to wait until the event finishes. Yeah I did. But this time, I didn't cursed. I was actually enjoying it. Like a kid with a brand new toy! We were busy taking pictures of the lighting show and fireworks display. After that, we went to the food stalls to burgers and drinks. Damn, they sold hot dogs at RM4.50!

Happy Kid with New Found Toy

2. New Job, New Happiness?
Perhaps...Well, we wouldn't know if something is for you or not until you are into it right?

So I went for 2nd interview with and O&G company in the Mines. At this point I was quite excited, but didn't want to hope too much as there's another candidate they are interviewing. I was quite apprehensive to join the company as I was told the pay is somewhat lower than my current earning. But since is so much nearer to my home, I would like to consider. It so happened, my resume was pushed to the Project Director instead. One rank higher. Last time I was interviewed to serve the Finance Director. Yeay! And the boss is a nice guy!! An Indian Indian. First time to get an expat boss. Yeay yeay yeayyyy!!!

And on Monday morning, after a tense conversation with my boss on the phone, I got a call from the Company! They offered me the job! And later in the afternoon, the HR officer called again, telling me that they are retaining my current salary plus an allowance for parking. Alhamdulillah!!! Straight away, I wrote my resignation letter and submit to my office. What a relieve. But I think my boss will freak out! Just wait until she comes to the office. Oh oh...Brrrrrrrrrr......


Until then...cheers!

Yesterday...

Yesterday.. I met someone who gave me the kind of advice I need so much right now. She's my agent. The one who introduced me to this job. Very practical advice. She made all the way from KLCC, her  office to my office area in Damansara. Well, yeah, its not really far without the traffic jam. But if you don't have the heart, you won't even visit friends living in the next road of yours, isn't it??

So, since after I met her, I've been doing a lil bit of soul searching. What exactly that I want to be? What career path do I really really really want? What kind of lifestyle?

You see, many of us, would answer MONEY as the simplest motivation to work. But, is it all? Don't you want to have a much loved-fulfilling career? I feel like I'm missing some parts in my career right now. I'm not sure what. Is it that it doesn't really match my personality? Maybe that is why I don't feel satisfied with my job for the past couple of years. Maybe?

Is it??? I still not really sure. Is secretarial all that I can do? I wonder. Hrmhh...

Brainy Me??

Tell you the truth, this week my brain is in half working mode. I can't really focus on anything. Not so much enthusiasm.

Everyday I tried to write something. But after two sentences, I went blank. And I dumped the writings into drafts. This is not good. There's so much going on. I felt like sharing with all of you. But, as I said, my brain went numb.

Currently listening to Halo by Beyonce. I'm feeling a bit relaxed.

So what's up for the past couple of days?
1) I was deciding what should I do with my career.
2) And then I freaked out.
3) I realized I don't have enough experience and qualification to get a better job.
4) I'm not sure whether to quit my current job now or later. If I submit my resign letter, will I get a new job within a month. Like Yash said, better wait. Hrmhh. I'm still not sure.
5) So I was thinking whether to get a professional cert. Thought of  taking ICSA to become a chartered secretary. It will definitely bring me a greater future. But how to pay? How long the duration of study? Hrmhh...Gotta check with MAICSA and hopefully get exempted for few subjects. Save time and money.

So...yes..nothing exciting going on. But few of my friends are getting excited. Few are delivering their first born, few are getting engaged. Good luck and congratulation everyone! You know who you are. And one is starting a new job at a famous IT company. I'm proud of you all.