Constipated

I ate alot, but I didn't eat proper food lately. I mean fiber rich foods. Therefore I am suffering from my self made constipation. My tummy is feeling hard. Damn.

Less caffeine which is water sucker, more fruits and vege. Yeah yeah yeahh...

My friend is getting married. Two in fact, during this weekend. I was torn which one to attend. Finally, I made up my mind. I will attend Diana's at Malacca, for her solemnization. And Ainul's for her reception, which I will be giving a speech. Fair eh? Happy Kawin Kawin dearies! Goodbyeeeeee singlehood!

Since I attended Safety Day event last Tuesday, my mind became quite alert about safety issues. I used to mock and detest everytime Papa said, "Wear your seatbelts, don't wait until you got flagged down by the traffic police!." We children always thought Papa being Mr Goody Two Shoes about it, since police were usually busy manning the traffic they didn't even realized we were not wearing seat belts! But thinking back, he was working as Safety and Health Officer. It became his second nature to be very alert about all these. Not just over reacting. Working in this O&G industry, I realized, they are SUPER concerned about health and safety issues. A rare occurence in my previous offices. Now that I had a rude awakening from the long video presentation "Remember Charlie"-about a guy who got burned 45% of his body. He said, a mistake he made for not following the safety rules at work, became a lifetime regret. One stupid mistake! All the while before that, he always thought "It's not going to happen to me" everytime he was being reminded in daily briefings. So now, I don't feel easy not wearing the seatbelts while driving!( Skema la pulak aku!)

Okay guys, worry not. Just be aware in everything you do. As the saying says, "No human is perfect." But all that we can do is, be as perfect as possible. So that we will not say "If only..." once something bad happens. Regrets will only dampen your spirit.Take care!

Still Low??Schweeet!!

I hate the scent of hospital.You know that sanitized scent. Usually made of Dettol vapour. This morning, when I walked into my office lobby, it was all around me.Felt a little bit dizzy, suffocated. We had another case of H1N1 this week. So nurses was stationed at every floor entrance. All must be declared fit before entering the work area, including the visitors. Disease..GO AWAY!

To support health awareness among staffs, the Company organized a health check, from weight to cholestrol level in blood was checked. The most fit person will be given a special prize tomorrow. I'm a confirmed failure. In a positive note, I have a reason to stuffed myself with sweet goodness! My blood sugar level was low, even after I had my breakfast and lunch and three big glass of sweetened drinks. I wonder why? But then, CUPCAKES, CHOCOLATES, CAKES, DESSERT....here I come! yeay!

Another FAT issue!

I left this part in the last entry.

Since this is going to be a beach holiday, I tried to find the most skimpy outfit to wear. And I missed my short shorts. Not that I have great legs. I always have thunder hips and all. But being by the seaside, will automatically makes me feel sexy. It always did. So I rummaged through my clothes boxes(yes, we haven't properly settled in my parents house). Found the treasure. Yeay. Out of nowhere, I felt like trying them on. 1..2...3...Bloody hell!!!! It was so tight!! On early last year, it was very loose. I even had to wear them with belts on! Now, I hardly can zip them up. Shitty shitty shitty!! So this morning, I woke up, feeling down at the sight of the shorts. I quickly put them in the box back. Together with all the short, tight fitting and sexy attires which I have avoided lately, out of shame and sickening social life since moving in with my parents.

Today, is a very very very unhappy, demotivated, sickening day. Feels like shopping. But can anything fit me now?? I don't want, don't want, don't want to go to the PLUS SIZE section. No no no no no no!!!!

P/S: Launching war against fat laden foods, in my mind.

I had that Before!

I just finished my Nasi Lemak for breakfast. It took me 45 minutes to gobble everything down. Something came up. Had to take a break for 2 times.

And then I went to Liana's blog. Darn. Today she has a pic of her running in Malakoff run recently. 7.48 km she said. And shits..her body is so kurus. Not stick thin. Nice thin. Toned you know. And I got jealous. I had that kind of body before. With round butts though. But a bit flat chested. I am almost 20 kgs heavier since when I left school. And now, I'm feeling jealous of her and guilty for eating that bloody Nasik Lemak which consists of fried chicken, boiled eggs, squid sambal and sambal kerang besides the deliciously fattening rice. Ohhhhh!! Damage done. Can I run now???

Feverish+Happiness+New Home

Since yesterday, I was feeling a bit off. And as usual since little, my fever peaks at night. I could be completely talkative, energetic being daytime and bedridden, hardly speaking or eating at night.

However, I had extra strength. Howcome?
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1. I watched Twilight New Moon
at Pavilion, had cupcakes and ate Hot plate mee.
2. Darling Superman accompanied me to watch Twilight!!
In fact, surprisingly, that morning he wanted to buy the tickets
himself through online. But after the web could not access
his online banking, he had to call me.
Awwwwwww schweeetttttttt! Muah muah muah!
Love you my teddy bear...XOXO!!!!

At this moment,1.54pm, I'm stuck in office. My boss is on leave since yesterday.I was left with nothing much to do. Its a blessing coz my head's throbbing while my eyes are burning and the throat's super dry.I think the fever's creeping back.But, I'm wondering whether it would be okay if I can leave early today. Superman's on MC too. He's having a bad case of flu.I think we both needs antibiotics or something. Lately my body was having a mad tantrum. Somedays, I got backpain. And out of a sudden, my blood pressure went down for no reason. And then fever comes in. Head's spinning. But luckily it doesn't come all at one time although I was never free of any pain for few months already. Worried but I don't think the MC-stingy-doc-at-panel clinic-named-Mediviron Ampang Point will give justice except for more antibiotics, painkillers and JUST time sheet. Seriously. Kedekut MC!

Currently, we are still waiting for our new house key. A 2 storey, 4 bedroom terrace house at Kemuning Utama, Shah Alam.Bought by Superman, last year.

I'm procrastinating big time. I hate packing up stuffs. There's so much to pack after living there for more than a year. Especially the heavy books and magazines. That's what happens when you
love reading so much. More of a habit than hobby.har har!

I'm imagining alot of things for the new house. From the colour of the walls, types of furnitures and decorations, and storage designs.I dreamt of a big walkin wardrobe.One of the room is going to be MY WARDROBE ROOM.But he doesn't like the idea of storing shoes near clothes due to hygienic reasons. But then I like it to be that way so that I can easily match my clothes AND shoes AND bags together in front of a big mirror when dressing up.

I love this one the most. I just love the white panel cupboards.
Divine! but, I think I'm gonna ditch the shoes display and put up a big
mirror instead. And I think the room is bigger. Yeay!

And use up boxes with polaroid pics as a more hygienic and practical
solution for shoes storage. Hey, love the ghost chair too!!

pics courtesy: this is glamourous



Do you have better ideas? I don't know about the price tag for 'my dream'
walkin wardrobe yet. But I welcome suggestions.
Or something easy DIY?
caution: I am no Paris Hilton or Kimora Lee Simmons.
But my taste is parallel but I don't have their bank accounts.
So help me please!LOL!

A LOT of Stories....

1. I had a major blood pressure problem.
Not high bp
But low bp.
Its always like that. But last week, it was so bad, that makes me have fever and headache at the center of my head. No joke man..It was terrible. Took two days MCs.
The doc gave me some meds. One of it smells like cat's pee. Hancing!!! I think that's the best since I got better after two days of taking it. But seriously..I dread it with all my heart. YUCKS!!!

2.My florist made a visit to my house.
Yeah, the lovely 2 friends of mine, Ninie and Winnie finally made their way to my 'under construction' house last Friday night to get the vibe of the house and measurements of the stairs. On Thursday, I will join them to the flower supplier to pick the blooms on my own coz I am terribly fussy. Luckily they are my friends and layan je laaaahhhh!! hehehehe..

3.Have you ever heard of 'Lintasan'??
The event happened to my papa on Friday. He was getting ready for Friday prayers at nearby mosque, when suddenly, he felt so cold and his body was shaking right after even after switching off the fan and wrapped his body with thick blanket. He went to sleep and woke up about two hours later. My mom who saw him staring blankly to the space, panickly asking him whether he was okay. He didn't respond. And after awhile, he said, "Nak sembahyang Subuh". She frantically called my brother and they drove to our family clinic at Kajang, while he still stared blankly. My brother had to lugged him into the clinic. He didn't respond to my mom when she asked him to get down from the car. While waiting his turn, he vomited. Then only he realized where he was..he didn't remember at all everything that happened previously. The doc gave him a jab, and he went to sleep untill the next morning. He woke up so early, fit as fiddle and asked my mom what she wanted to eat. Eh??!

My mom said, it looks like he got 'lintasan', a situation when spirits a.k.a ghosts, became angry when we accidentally disturb their place. Eh??Is it?? Where did my dad went??Wasn't he just at home before the incident happen? Is my house ..a ghost house???huwaaaaa!!No Mariam, think positive!

4. My wedding gift containers has arrived!
It is cute! Won't reveal it yet. Clue:Traditional:)

5. I think I don't really mind to be a chubby bride, because my Superman is wayyyyyyy chubbier! AHAHAHAHA!
Frankly, everytime I feel like dieting there's always stumbling points:
-my back pain
-food laden parties
-my low bp sickness
-laziness
-moodswings
all requires me to eat this and that.

Therefore, I almost give up by now to be a slim, sleek, gorgeous bod bride.
Getting slim is very pressuring. What's more my with wedding is in
1 month and 2 days?!
The worriness will appear on my face. Its bad..really bad.
Now I need to be calm.

SO,
I'll be happy to be a chubby gorgeous bride.
(with curves)

Who says you can't be gorgeous when you are a tad fatter then what you used to be during your glamorous days??
or rather when you first met The One??

Right makeup..right hair..right dress..right accesories.
That's all you need.
Oh yes..also..
the right attitude and the right smile.:)

this is not a denial. this is the reality.





That's all for now people. I want to eat some chocolates.
My boss is on MC.
Yeay!

....

I've been suffering of a throbbing headache since Monday night until now..I can't even talk loud, sneeze or cough without feeling it getting much more intense. I don't know what caused it.
I took some med..but it doesn't go away. Oh Allah, please don't make it worse. But how worse can it be?? Is it just migraine or can it be tumor? God knows. I don't know. I hate to go to the clinic and all. And I' working. I realized I took quite alot of MCs lately due to my back pain checkups. So I gathered my strength. Praying that I won't collapse.

So today...I am in a really calm, non-talkative mode.

Oh my wedding prep is getting haywire.. the orders from Indonesia just arrive.. But we have to pay the custom tax. Damn. 30% from the value. There goes the unexpected cost. Mind you, the vendor posted it through their national courier service a.k.a Pos Laju like in Malaysia. Contrary to International courier service e.g UPS, DHL,etc which has custom tax included and they send the stuffs right to your door. No wonder the delivery service was cheap.. Darn! And you have to pick it up at LCCT yourself, or appoint Pos Malaysia as courier which adds up another RM49++.

My mom just called saying that the 600 cards I printed is not enough. Wut duh? 600=at least 1200 ppl. How many she's inviting...oh oh...I don't want to think.. She's paying. Up to her lahh.. I'll just reorder some.

I havn't picked up my dresses. I worry if I added up few more pounds recently.. But I think NOT kot..puhh puhhhh.....i'allahh.. I think I'll do it in one or two weeks later.

I can't wait 10.10.09.
There's a lists of events to be attended. 2 of my friends are getting hitched. My secondary school, SMKAMH, is having our first big reunion. I' having my first makeover. And there will be relatives open houses ..ALL IN ONE DAY!

okehh..I've got to buzz off...anxiety is not a good thing to my head right now. I need to be calm.

~Toodle doo~

Body Perfect?

Gosh...I still havn't got my desired body.
I don't want to talk about weight..
U see, I just hate numbers. Scary!

ANY FAST REMEDIES??
Advice me please!

Don't want to talk about exercise.
I need substance.

Charming Doc+Slipped Disc+Pills Pills+New Gym????

Hey ya people..

Yesterday I waited for almost two hours before my name got called for the my backpain checkup. Gotta tell y'all its worth the wait. With hungry tummy, boredom n coldness from the Ampang Puteri's air cond creeping in, I almost felt like doing it in another day. So my name was called. I was ushered in...and there he was...the Charming Doc. I felt myself blushing. Hahah...stupid tul! He'somewhat 50 y/o++ but..owh!And his office was like a businessman's office except for the skeletons and the examination bed.

He diagnosed me as having a mild slip disc. Not severe enough to go under the knife, luckily! But...he gave me alot of pills..darn..I hate pills! And...with precautions not to do any gravity defying exercise, no free weights...n more swimmings. And...Pilates and Yoga... and I was like...wut????Am i gonna be a mat lover now??I never tried them because of the fact it didn't looked fun to me..Stretching and stretching...like elastic band on the mat.Eww!!I dont know if I'm gonna do it or not. Maybe I'll give it a try. Maybe. I'm gonna miss those energetic body combat or dance type workout classes.

And..i've been missing my gym sessions alot now..because of the pain and actually I get bored with Fitness First environment. So i decided to have a change. Not just the location but the company itself..I found out that I could get a cheaper and nicer deal from Celebrity Fitness. I enrolled at its Bangsar outlet last night. From RM185+20(towels fee) at FF to RM169 monthly, all in at CF. They have more outlets now since they bought over California Fitness last week. And more is sprucing up all over Klang Valley area. And for those who likes to cuci mata, all the class trainers are Brazilians(as for me, I don't care lah..Wut so great about them in terms of performance, Malaysians tak cukup bagus ke???)...so..Jom Join!

Also yesterday, I went berbuka with cik Mas at Midvalley before going to the CF. I ordered Assam Laksa at Madam Kwan. I don't know if it was the taste or me..as I could only eat like 3 or 4 spoons and stopped. I just don't have the appetite.Lately I don't feel like eating. Hrmhh.. Why lah??

Serious Stuff- H1N1!!!

I love being ignorant on serious issues. Coz serious issues wrecked my brains and my warm heart. And I believe, it makes the lines on your face became more apparent after the wrinkles when hearing sad, worrying things.

But I think, as a matured adult, this blissful ways, never last long. And one of the current serious issues of concern is regarding the current health epidemic-Influenza A a.k.a H1N1 or locally known as Selsema Babi.(famous betul binatang bernama babi..siput babi,pink cam babi, dsbnya..hehehe)

And today, when I stepped myself into the building lobby, I saw a Chinese guy wearing a mask. Ignorant as I was, I went into the lift with a building maintenance guy, wearing it too. Owh okay. Then, when i frantically walking into the office as I was 15 minutes late, my colleagu told me a harrowing story-" Yesterday, a girl was picked up by ambulance after she colllapsed in her office at the 10th flr. She died this morning, caused by H1N1! And all the maintenance team started to wear the face mask!" Demmit! Its surreal! And suddenly the cleaner walked out from the Management Wing, wearing the hideous mask. Shits. I felt my body prickled.Shit Shit Shit....Its not happening.Cool down..Its just at 10th Floor rite??rite?rite???!

WRONG!

Another girl from a different floor is being quarantined since yesterday. She was ill. Suspected H1N1 infected too.

And what the hell r we still working today in this building???!!

Hopefully it all goes fine today and I stay healthy and my flu goes away pronto!
Am going to Jakarta...no matter what.
I'm departing tomorrow.
Totally psyched but I think I need to get vaccinated before I leave.
Can my office's medical card pays for that? How much does it cost eh???Wergh!!!