I'm Back..

for jenguk2 je!

Hahah.. Yes, here I am writing to you as promised. Once in awhile.

While writing this in a freezing cold office, also while listening to raya songs, my heart kept thudding with something...nostalgic. Hard to express it by words. My tears welling up. Pfft..what the hell? But of what, I don't know. Just heavy with emotions. I think the songs are poison.

This year, a lot of unexpected things happened within my family. A lot of sad stories, interlaced with happy news.

I am really happy that my parents are still alive to this day. The biggest situation was when my mum was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. After my mum's stint in the hospital and up and down with fever, infections whatnot, I was really worried about her, and kept wondering, until when? Now, for the moment, I just want them to live as long as possible. Of course I can't control that, it's in the hand of the almighty. But nearing the Raya celebration, I can't help to wonder, what it feels like if I won't be able to celebrate it with them? You know, if they are gone too soon? Their faces and bodies have shrunken, like old people expected to be. My papa's hearing is really bad too. It seems not so long ago that they were a pair of chubby, healthy and lively people. My protective parents.The decline are too apparent this year. Ya Allah, dear merciful god, please please please shower them with good health and happiness. Shower us siblings with it too and give us never ending and heaps of rezeki so that we can take care of our parents properly.

FYI, me and Superman has passed the 1 month stay at our new rented condo. Coming to two months now, and last weekend I had my BV clan breaking their fast. It was lovely. I wrote an entry in my wordpress.com blog. I wish our next move will be our own house. Its tiring to pack and unpack. Cost us time and money too!

I can't believe I puasa just fine this year. Although sometimes, I felt like buying McDonalds and Starbucks in the middle of the day! Go Yam Go!!

So, how's your raya preparation? All done? Me? Only 1 pair of baju kurung bought. 2 tubs of biscuits given by my friends. That's it! Believe me?? :D

Till I write again in here, have fun reading my blabs in my other blog! Subscribe it will you?

Selamat berpuasa. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin :)

This Hari Raya

Hi Darlings....

Found my friends sending Raya e-cards and zero real paper cards to me this year. Owh, you are very kind to environment but not to me..huk huk2! But its okay. The thoughts that matter. Thanks thanks!

Prior to the Hari Raya day which falls on 10.9.10, Friday, I would like to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri. Sorry if my words hurt you. Sorry for not being able to accomodate your feelings in my writings. Really if I ever hurt you physically, sorry. Sorry in every way. I'll do my best to be a better writer and person.

Drive safely. Eat a lot, and let us get fat together:) hhehe!

Ngada2 mode

This morning...i'm back to my mengada2 mode to Superman.
He sulked for 3 days over some issues we spoke and refused to call me wutnot.
Huh..geram je aku...sekali...i think dia sendirik tak tahan..
hahahahaahha!!!

And he called me yesterday morning.

And at night a message came from him:
My last threat to you:
No cooking no camera raya!
(edited version)

Owh..hahahahahahha!
takde hal punye mau masak.
So its really true la...win your man's heart through his tummy.
I havn't cooked for him for ages. Not once during this Ramadhan.
We both was so busy, hardly meeting each other. And i got lazy to cook.
Everytime buka puasa together, we were eating outside and watched movies.

So...the summary of his sulking:
He wants attention. He wants me to feed him.

hahahahah
DARLING
You Are So
Cute??Sweet??Mengada??
Wuteva lah..
I LOVE YOU!

yeyeay! camera raya!

Crazy Weekend+Painting Madness

1) Deco deco deco!
Last weekend, I devoted myself to my family house at Kajang. The renovation seems only 50% complete. And its gonna be Hari Raya celebration this Sunday. I'm worried and mummy was triple worried with the situation. We can't really clean up. Also moving stuffs back to its original place is still a big No No. The dust is almost everywhere. The most sane places in the house are the kitchen and my parents bedroom.

I felt lucky that I don't live there everyday like my other family members.

So to compensate and stop my mom nagging me everytime i came back home, I finally started painting this and that in my sis's room. Pity her. Her room has never receive a makeover since god knows when. I try to make it so much less clutter and more spacious. And I strived to have a fusion of cool, feminine and chic theme. Completely different from the old look. Oh, its not completed yet coz I took some hefty hours recovering my energy by sleeping midday. eheheheheh... I think the best thing is the wall deco. Wait till I upload the pics.You be the judge!

I wish some godsend designers decided to come to the house to take care of the task, for FREE. Really, It takes alot of time and energy!

2) Wedding prep updates.

53 Days left of my single hood days.

I try not to think so much of the emotional impact of a marriage to a person. It scares me. I still can't shake off the bad stories I heard.

I just pray hard that nothing bad will happen prior to the wedding as well as afterwards.

And me and Supeman can really workout being a legally married couple living under the same roof and understanding and accepting our differences with ease.

And I really2 hope my family and in laws will forever be supportive and tolerate our idiosyncracies whether intentionally or not.

I also hope that we as a person will live to be as our true self till the end.

I just pray hard, that this decision of marrying Superman is really a worthy and the best decision in my life.

Help me Allah, help me angels, help me friends and family to make me only think beautiful things so that there won't be extra wrinkles and acne appearing on my sensitive skin.

Pray for us that we are healthy and calm.

And please also pray that the money will come tumbling down from the sky or appeared under our pillows every morning.
(over laa pulakkk!hehehe) .

AAAAmminnnnnn.....! :)

anyways...here's the real update:

Huh??

1. Last night, I went to Bak Tailor at Wisma Yakin, Jalan TAR to pick up my Berinai dress and Raya dress. It was nice. But that's not the story. Its about two brothers who came to pick up their baju melayu at the tailor. They seem handsome enough to look at. Sort of elite caste based on their appearance. So, yesterday was the promised date from the tailor. When they tried up the dresses, they need some alterations. Here's the conversation:

Tailor(T): Bang, this alterations would be done within a week. I'm sorry its puasa month, busy month so we cannot make it earlier.
Big Brother(BB): What??No no..you have to make it ready by tomorrow.(dengan muka bengang)
T: Bang, betul bang, semua kene ikut queue. Kang kalau saya jump kang, customer lain pulak tak dapat ambil order diorg.Sorry sangat. Lagipon raya will be at the end of next week kan??Sempat...
BB: Mmg tak sempat.. FUCK YOU la...ko jangan main2 dengan aku! Aku nak guna 9hb ni.
Assistant Tailor(AT): Sabar bang...sabar...
BB: Ape sabar2?Ape punya service lah!

and then there's another guy customer(GC) joined in the commotion.. But mmg bijak lah ayat dia-->

GC: You nak pergi mana nak kene cepat?? Nak pergi German ke???(Ape kaitan German tah?)
BB: Tak..saya nak pergi Mekah lusa.
GC:Mekah?Ha..elok la tu perangai nak pegi Mekah macam ni. Bulan Ramadhan ni kene banyak bersabar bang.
BB: His mouth went agape..cheeks flushing red..and stomping out of the shop while everyone was watching, scrutinizing his every move. And the not so lil bro tagged along behind him.

Gila kan?...I was thinking, why is it hard for him to reason out. The tailor then said to me..."La mana la kita tahu dia nk guna 9hb, hari tu masa tempah tak cakap pon., just bagitahu nak ambik time puasa. Tak penah la jumpa customer macam tu punya kurang ajar. Dah ni...dia kuar tadi tak bayar pon lagi..I nak call dia pon takda hati. Sakit hati je...." Pity her.

2. I reserved a bag, at Kate Spade last weekend, the same day I went to Bimba & Lola sale at the Garden Midvalley. At that time I was contemplating whether to buy it or not. Its for my hantaran. I fell in love with the fuchsia pink AND the big bow.

the pretty Beauville Gabi. kate spade

But then, on last Sunday, the SA called me up. I taught she just want to remind me about the reservation as it lasts for a week. Whereas, I'm still contemplating. But she told me, that they just got a memo that the lining of the bag was made of pigskin. And I was so relieved that I didn't buy there and then. Its just not meant for me. Come to think of it, I fell in love with pigskin merchandise twice on the same day!!!!! Hell! Teruk aaa diorg ni!!!Bakper la mu jual hok kulit babi tu kat Malaysia negare Islam nehhhhhhhhhh???????Persatuan Pengguna Islam, pls fight for it!

Do you know anywhere else I can get something2 like this??Minus the pigskin.hhuhhuhu!

DON't WANT DON't WANT!

I dreamt that I don't want to open my fasting.

Biar betul!!

Tapi itu mimpi selepas subuh.. Leh pakai ke?

Happening Hols+Sleepy Eyes in the Morning.

Yesterday afternoon, around 4:30pm, was my awaited pre wedding photoshoot.
TQ, XOXO to my peeps who managed to come and fill up the empty space in the frames:)
It was a really funny, absurd, awkward, romantic moments.
The Diva and Kings of us made the appearance within the hour.
Hopefully, its was all translated beautifully in the pics.
When we wrapped up, we were totally tired, famished and just want food. A real nice one.

Headed up to Cawan, Bangsar. Too bad, they didn't want to prepare the tables nicely for the 12 of us.
But when we said we wanted to check out other restaurants, suddenly, they frantically rearrange the tables...WTF kan??Lazy...banyak alasan!
We then went up to the balcony of the newly renovated Madam Kwan, and ordered sumptuous foods. After we finished the food, we were all melepek...perut sudah penuh SANGAT woo!

p/s: 2 kali dah p Madam Kwan minggu ni!Cik Mas ade dua2 kali.haha.
Cam belangkas lak kitorg ni.

So I went to check the Bimba & Lola sale. LianaMazlan cakap semua 50%. Mak datok!!
Tapi, when I arrived, I couldn't find anything captivating. Except the shoes.
Again??
Tak boleh...I need a bag je!!Nanti Superman bising lak.
Cemane ni???
OOps...tersuka sesuatu.. A shoes..sangat suka.. tried it on..the display..
my size pulak tu(sangat rare ok!)..Tiba2....

Salesman: Kak, itu pig skin shoes la..
Me: hah???!Alamakk..tak perasan the label la...Siyes, tak sedar..
Salesman: Takpe, kalau kulit kita kering takpe.. jangan kulit tgh lembab..
bersentuh of course kene samak.
Me: Cis..!!!!Nasib kulit tengah kering!

Can Malaysian retailers please DO NOT SELL ANY PIG SKIN ITEMS???
Dahla frust tak dapat beg raya.
Terpakai pig skin shoes.
FRUST!!

Today..I am really2 sleepy.
I dreamt of wierd+scary things.
Maybe because I watched Sarjan Hassan movie before falling asleep.
I woke up at 2am, with my legs trembling.
Takmo tengok cerite Sarjan Hassan lagi!
Happy Independence Day!

Charming Doc+Slipped Disc+Pills Pills+New Gym????

Hey ya people..

Yesterday I waited for almost two hours before my name got called for the my backpain checkup. Gotta tell y'all its worth the wait. With hungry tummy, boredom n coldness from the Ampang Puteri's air cond creeping in, I almost felt like doing it in another day. So my name was called. I was ushered in...and there he was...the Charming Doc. I felt myself blushing. Hahah...stupid tul! He'somewhat 50 y/o++ but..owh!And his office was like a businessman's office except for the skeletons and the examination bed.

He diagnosed me as having a mild slip disc. Not severe enough to go under the knife, luckily! But...he gave me alot of pills..darn..I hate pills! And...with precautions not to do any gravity defying exercise, no free weights...n more swimmings. And...Pilates and Yoga... and I was like...wut????Am i gonna be a mat lover now??I never tried them because of the fact it didn't looked fun to me..Stretching and stretching...like elastic band on the mat.Eww!!I dont know if I'm gonna do it or not. Maybe I'll give it a try. Maybe. I'm gonna miss those energetic body combat or dance type workout classes.

And..i've been missing my gym sessions alot now..because of the pain and actually I get bored with Fitness First environment. So i decided to have a change. Not just the location but the company itself..I found out that I could get a cheaper and nicer deal from Celebrity Fitness. I enrolled at its Bangsar outlet last night. From RM185+20(towels fee) at FF to RM169 monthly, all in at CF. They have more outlets now since they bought over California Fitness last week. And more is sprucing up all over Klang Valley area. And for those who likes to cuci mata, all the class trainers are Brazilians(as for me, I don't care lah..Wut so great about them in terms of performance, Malaysians tak cukup bagus ke???)...so..Jom Join!

Also yesterday, I went berbuka with cik Mas at Midvalley before going to the CF. I ordered Assam Laksa at Madam Kwan. I don't know if it was the taste or me..as I could only eat like 3 or 4 spoons and stopped. I just don't have the appetite.Lately I don't feel like eating. Hrmhh.. Why lah??

Hrmhhh...

I'm not feeling good. I mean I'm well just that few things are giving me headache and heartache.
Some people are really good at taking away happiness off people.
Almost all the things are viewed negatively by them.
They are called
Leeches.
Why do they exist?
I think without them there won't be sadness after happiness.
And no headache and heartache for me today.



On happy note:
Went fitting for my baju raya yesterday.
But they need alterations at the sides. All of them.
I lost few inches. Yeah. No kidding.
Funnily enough, i ate more cupcakes lately. And I didn't go to gym.
Demi Allah, I never take any slimming pills!
Yeay! Alhamdulillahhh!
Berkat Ramadhan kot??





Note to Leeches,
do you want to take away this happiness too with your
heartless words??
Damn you Leeches!

Jakarta Prelude

I tot i could write and write on Wednesday. It turns out I was so busy unpacking, running some errands, went back to my parents house, send my lil 'Mini' to workshop for servicing and satisfying my craving for sushi. I missed alot of things while I'm in Jakarta:
1. Forgot to wish my KMPP friend, Faiz on his engagement last Saturday.
2. I missed sushi(oops this is not Malaysian but it was so rare in Jakarta)
3. I missed teh tarik.
4. I missed nasik lemak.
5. I missed iced nescafe.
6. My ex boss was caught by police. He's a con. He still owes rm5k of my salary. Who? Fariz Kassim, the guy who con people about MINDEF project. The story was in papers since last Saturday. I prayed he got convicted. Tipu2 hidup takkan senang! Sometimes I wonder why and how did Allah decided to send me to him and work for him for almost a year. Back then, I did feel something was off. But I couldn't comprehend. The last straw was when he didn't pay up my salary for two months in a row! The company never registered the staffs in SOCSO/EPF and paid us properly through banking, instead, we always received cash, always late,..macam buruh kasar kan??! He kept on promising us to do so and delayed it till the end.

And yesterday, I was busy communicating with my card designer from Jakarta. Turns out I forgot to bring the actual files of map, wordings, etc for her to incorporate into the card. So luckily I still have the files and its not too big to be sent through emails.If not, I'm fucked up!

Its gonna be puasa tomorrow. I love Ramadhan. But my eyes will always felt sleepy during the fasting month. And my manja tummy will feel sad. However its all that I have to bear to get alot of pahala for all the good deeds, much more from the other Muslim months. After all, Ramadhan is a month of opportunities. So, to my Muslim readers, happy Ramadhan n I pray that it will bring alot of barakah to each n everyone of us. AAAminnnnnnn!

Indonesian Trip Reminder

Indonesian Trip!

Bapak2...Ibuk2...
Am going to Jakarta-Bandung between 14th-18th August 2009. During my 5D4N stay there, its gonna be a helluva of shopping madness. Yes, of course, mainly about my wedding. Am going to hit the fabrics, tailors, cards, gifts, food stores and of course..ermhh...hahahha... hehehhe...OTHER stores lah...ala...u know...side shopping....:))
So, if anyone, you, or your family, sedaras, friends, boss, company, etc needs sth from there, do buzz me.

Perhaps,
stuffs for Raya, weddings, gifts for Ramadhan & Raya, kain batik jawa, traditional foods, telekungs, house deco, etc.
I will charge just a little portion to cover the transportation+logistic.

Kalau ada, pls let me know ASAP before my departure date and explain to me about your
budget, ideas, colours, options etc in detail
(yg plg penting your budget).

I will bring my lappie to update on my findings while I'm there. So u can still keep in touch with me over the net.

Ingat ya kawan2...
before 14 hb Ogos 2009.