Knowledge At Its Best

Truth is, sitting in front of computer all day long is an ideal job for me. However, my body is not designed for that as I'll feel restless, like something is not properly done looming in my head. I need to get out, see the world, and have fun with life. That is why I quit graphic designing as my day job. I turned into secretarial instead. Hoping to be able to meet numerous types of people and also hoping to stumble upon a boss who requires me to travel, giving a chance for me to see the world, all expense paid. However, that has yet to become a reality. 

Today, I'm watching Sex and the City reruns to kill off my time in the office.Immersing myself in Carrie Bradshaw's life as a writer, I'm feeling in love with the lifestyle. So free and yet so grounded. I always believe your career is your lifestyle. We can't really separate our 9 to 5 life and outside the office. Somewhere somehow, especially when your are a workaholic, it will continually intertwined. But being a writer like her, you write your life observations. It is really real. I wonder if something like that is meant for me. Writing in this blog, is already halfway from what it is. Just that, I am not getting paid. Have I wasted my time greatly? Is it time to have a career switch, again? Maybe the biggest question is, do I really have what it takes??

On a completely different story, I went to this blog, and found few interesting new words to my liking. I now knew that I am an ailurophile. And I have an effervescent persona. And I am a never a lissome girl. I need an elixir to lift up my spirit! he he...word is power!

Exam Fever!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! I have SPA(Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam) exam tomorrow morning. How laaa??? I haven't prepared anything out of laziness and not interested in it at all. I applied before I got my new job. Out of desperation and my family and hubby was so gung ho about working in government agencies. Its all because of the stability and benefits it offers. I am going ,  just so I won't get blacklisted in the future, just in case I suddenly feels like working with the government.

Tomorrow, I have few other things to attend. Promised Hannah to accompany her to buy some fabrics at Jalan Tar. And me, Superman and her are going to the tailor. The next thing will be my friend's birthday at Red Box Pavilion. 80's themed party. Aiyaaa..what should I wear???I think I don't have anything appropriate in my wardrobe. Reason to shop? But ain't got no money! Must buy present also!

Let today be a nice short day. :)

DON'T JUDGE will you??!

Just arrive home from work.
My aunty was around, visiting my mom.

Me: Assalamualaikum. Hi, how are you?
Aunty: Eh pakai skirt? (with cursory-looking-at-prostitute kindof look)
Mom: Dia kan orang putih.

Aku confused. Oh Mommy...what kind of answer is that?

Aunty, just because I don't wear big scarves and socks all the time like your daughter does, doesn't mean I'm bad!

Rusty Me

Lately been feeling my slipped disc is coming back again. Maybe because of the fact I sat in the car for quite a long time daily, driving to work. Last Thursday and Friday, I took 2 days MC. Called up my boss to inform. Hoping for her to understand. Instead, I got harsh accusations and threat of legal action if I don't come back to work to perform the balance of  my one month service(13 more days!). Evil boss indeed!

Put that aside..I really miss being active. Most of the things that I love to do is forbidden right now. I love fast paced workouts like kick boxing. I love kicking so much. Ha ha. I'm not a fan of long run or jog. But right now, I would kill to do it, but hoping for zero pain afterwards. Doc advised me to do alot of swimming and yoga. Swimming, yes! Yoga? Oh no! Not really my cup of tea.;p Nowadays anything I do, I mean, not just for exercise, even for daily task, must be very low impact. I'm feeling so Ah So...a.k.a old aunty already!

But I read in an article, when you are having daily pressure from your life or work, your pain will be much more apparent. I couldn't disagree.

True

Today, I mean..since yesterday, my blogger friends and those blogs I love to read so much, didn't update their entries. And even if they do, many lacks enthusiasm. At least that's how I feel. Is everybody feeling the same as me? 

Is it out of laziness OR nothing to write 

OR their life has became somewhat somber? 

My own life ain't colourful enough these days. Besides happy news on my new job,  I had to accept my cat's not coming back. My husband is outstation for a week. Miss poking him here and there especially when he's watching TV. Yes, I am very touchy2 girl. I hate the traffic on the way to work.  I also found that from Monday to Friday, given any week, sure as hell will be repetitive. And I can't wait for the weekends. 

Well, it's not a big deal. Its very grown up. Almost everyone is going through the phase. Just that, I don't feel content.

SLOW Monday

For the first time, I managed to doze off about an hour after lunchtime at office today.

Pure bliss!

My boss ain't stomping into the office today. She's having bronchitis. Maybe that's the reason I'm feeling this relax. Not purposely. It just crept in without my knowing.;p

Listening to Kris Allen's- Live Like We Are Dying on hitz.fm, I felt a sense of urgency to fill my life with good intentions in everything I do and makes people around me feels proud of my doings instead otherwise. How can a person be so perfect? Can we actually live without negative emotions? And always be so forgiving even if he/she was subjected to terrible wrongdoings by others? I always hear and tried to instill in my life this saying,"To live is to forgive and forget." But somehow it sounds so idealistic. Right? Forgive, maybe. Forget, no way! I know how my brain works. Bad things always get replayed even when I didn't ask for it.

Still Haven't Decided!

Yesterday, my boss read my resignation letter. But she haven't given the feedback yet. I hope to hear from her today. I appealed for one week early departure and for her to waive the one month salary repayment for that matter. Yes, my company requires staff under probation to give one month notice OR to pay up one month salary for 24 hrs notice.. Well, I'm quite confused with the situation. I've given the office one month notice. They can't ask me to pay up right? But, how about if I leave one week earlier than the suppose actual last date? Will I be subjected with the penalty? Is it fair if they ask to pay for the prorated 5 days? I just hope that I don't have to pay anything. Anybody who knows how to handle this matter, please advise.

I'm quite excited to leave and start this new job. Although its not as challenging and unique working environment like in my current one, I think its time that I think of stability and flexibility. What I mean by flexibility is to be able to enjoy life besides work. My mantra is, I work to live not the other way round. Currently, 90% of my life is about work. I hope to reduce it and to be able to pursue other interests as well, like business or study or leisure activities. Balanced life, people.

What about you? Do you crave for balanced life or you prefer to be workaholic? And why?

Brainy Me??

Tell you the truth, this week my brain is in half working mode. I can't really focus on anything. Not so much enthusiasm.

Everyday I tried to write something. But after two sentences, I went blank. And I dumped the writings into drafts. This is not good. There's so much going on. I felt like sharing with all of you. But, as I said, my brain went numb.

Currently listening to Halo by Beyonce. I'm feeling a bit relaxed.

So what's up for the past couple of days?
1) I was deciding what should I do with my career.
2) And then I freaked out.
3) I realized I don't have enough experience and qualification to get a better job.
4) I'm not sure whether to quit my current job now or later. If I submit my resign letter, will I get a new job within a month. Like Yash said, better wait. Hrmhh. I'm still not sure.
5) So I was thinking whether to get a professional cert. Thought of  taking ICSA to become a chartered secretary. It will definitely bring me a greater future. But how to pay? How long the duration of study? Hrmhh...Gotta check with MAICSA and hopefully get exempted for few subjects. Save time and money.

So...yes..nothing exciting going on. But few of my friends are getting excited. Few are delivering their first born, few are getting engaged. Good luck and congratulation everyone! You know who you are. And one is starting a new job at a famous IT company. I'm proud of you all.

BLACK OUT!!!!

My avid readers, do you notice the changes I've made to this blog?

Yeah its to commemorate year 2010?No!CNY?No!

Its actually to 'layan' one of my good friend. She said she couldn't open my page. So I changed. I guess she didn't install the plug-ins. That's why. But nvm, dear Liana...this is a tribute to you..clap clap!

But why black themed?

Because I hate 2010 so far. I felt doomed.
But of course, walk your way to the war with style!
:) :S

Its Friday. And I'm having this Compulsory UNPAID Leave 'awarded' by my boss to all her stuffs. Sucks. But its okay. At least I'm having my holiday guilt-free. But close one eye, my salary will be deducted at the end of the month.Erk..Miskin la lagi aku...

Wondering I want to do the rest of the weekend until Tuesday. Any ideas people? Cheap but fantastic ones?

Lately

Who says 2010 is an auspicious year?

NOT for ME so far.

And so as few of my love ones too. Be it career, money, relationship, etc. Nothing positive so far. They are either stagnant or going down. In my case, most of it in the middle. Deeply confusing. To the point no word can really describe. Thus, my blog became a blank note on most days.

Writing used to be an almost everyday pleasure. But now I came to realize, monotonous or confusing daily happenings, doesn't excite me to write. I will bore you readers like nobody business.

My new job, was my last hope of life with desire. At least for the 9-6 crucial hours, 5 days a week. But after 8 days of joining, I have yet to feel the full potential. But I don't regret leaving my old company. I might feel somewhat a pang of regret joining this new company. However, isn't it a tad too early to determine my future here? Will it be so easy getting a new one out there? I always ignore my instinct. Should I listen to it now??

Last night before we slept, suddenly we had this wierd conversation.
Superman: I missed our bed
Me: I missed our TV
Superman: I missed our problematic Astro controller.
Me: He he.
Superman: Nite...
Me:Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........


I need my own house where I know where my own stuffs are. I need a vacation. I need a shopping spree(on Superman budget). I need tiramisu cake from Delecious. I need a good massage. I need my cat Oren. I need to chill with my friends. Maybe those things can compensate my hard-to-figure job?Maybe..

Currently

Currently, I am doing a report of my job. Jack of all trade. Now you can call me architect..project manager..now I know what is 1 Gang 2 Way and T5 4ft are. And yesterday I learned types of hinges. So Diana, if you are reading this, HELP!!! Now I know a little bit of your language.la la la la..

Lots has been asking what is it like in my new workplace. The answer is, mixed emotion.

Yes, right now I am consistently in mixed emotion, be it in personal or working life. I'm in limbo. Very indecisive. I just want to feel comfortable. But every time I think of doing anything, it doesn't really goes well with others plans. I just hate to be regarded as selfish or ignorant. But how can I satisfy everyone blatantly? Am I not entitled for giving opinions?Am I not entitled of making my own decisions?

I'm tired. Things are not so well right now. Vacations or shopping spree won't get things done. It won't deal my angst or my sadness. Its about facing my issue like an adult. But how adult can you be when your voice aren't heard and disregarded. How?

Sparkling Shiny Day

No no not the weather:)

The day. My day today. A nice happy ending of the week.
I got my Letter of Offer from my future workplace. Starting January 4th.
And finally, I tendered my resignation at my current office.




Hello New Life.
Hope It Won't Bore Me to Death Again.
Suddenly the air smells sweet:)

Hari Yang Malas

Yesterday,

I found out my husband is jealous of Robert Pattinson,
my movie star crush!

Awwww!He he he...
And he developed a sensitivity to anything Robert Pattinson and Twilight.
So who wants to accompany me to watch Twilight New Moon?
Please email me!

Today,
I finally renewed my license at JPJ.
Actually, changed to full license after 2 years of
driving with P stamped on my screens.It was overdue by almost 3 months!

I think I miss someone so much.

Who?

Guess guess guess lah!

And
I got a second nephew this morning.
The baby of my sister, Munira and his husband Anuar.
We nicknamed him Ultraman.
But my sis said his real name gonna be Ali.
Welcome to the world Mr ALI:)
(At this point is still not registered. Will update soon!)


Isn't he a cutie??

Have a nice day everyone!:)

iT is Shopping Season!

Why do shopping season always happens when I'm broke?

Yeah, with our wedding just passed by, our financial is still in red alert until maybe 3 months more. What's with photographers and videographers to pay and us moving out to our new lovepad gonna happen within couple of months, it won't be a good time to get ANY new bags, shoes or clothes without reasons aite? I hope my current 'Financial Minister' will agree on the budget allocations to buy job interview outfits or new makeup or this or that or that one also or everything?! hehehehe.....

I kept on reminded of the shopping fun fare when there's always new messages popping up in my inbox announcing the big bargains and special set for Christmas gifts. Being an avid shopper, of course I'm always armed with store cards and credit card. And now they are being ruthless to my fragile soul. Oh god!!! Should I just turn off the handphone and sign off my emails??You know, its not just stores at shopping malls are doing it, even internet shopping webs are joining in the craze!Warghhh!

And some of my friends are going to Singapore for the big shopping season.Drool!

Yes people, sadly I'm announcing that
I CANNOT JOIN THE FUN! Not just yet!
~Wiping off the tears~

But its okay, I am gonna enjoy the sweet moments of my new life with my dear hubby.
And last but not least.......
I can't wait to DECORATE MY NEW HOUSE soon!
My ultimate creative avenue.
Darling, lets shop for paints and home deco!

Bluekkk!

Something Happened

Yesterday..was a bad day for me n Superman.
No we didn't fight.
Its something about his career.It saddened me.
But he took it with stride.
I'm proud of him.

Sorry guys, I can't elaborate what its all about.

But on a bright side,
He will be less pressured. He can focus more on his own business.
Perhaps he has more time for me.
And perhaps he's will find a greener pasture for his future.
OUR future.
I wish you all the best Darling.
I LOVE YOU.

XOXO,
B

Life Now

He loves Supersport.

I love Star World.

But there's only one TV.

One remote control. It's in his hand.

So now I'm here..writing for my blog.