Daze

In short:

I'm in a mess.

Need to find a house to rent by today..And move in tomorrow.
A new tenant will be coming in our current apartment by 1st January 2010. Two days!!! bloody two days.. And we have tonnes to pack up. And of course another 1001 things to do!

Cash Under

I HAVE NOT MUCH CASH FOR JANUARY 2010
NOT A GOOD START FOR THE 'AUSPICIOUS' YEAR!
~its sickening~

:(





We decided to replan our relocation to a nearer location to the city.
Should be within convenience to travel to work.
In between Setiawangsa and Damansara.
Kota Kemuning, not in the list anymore. We are selling the house.
But we were confused.
We fought over a condo or a linked landed house.
Which one is the wiser option?
Still deciding.

:(

Christmas+No Money+Super Calories Weekend

Hey ya peeps..Sure u have a great weekend. Long 3-days weekend. Yeah..Nice aaa.. Wonder what everyone was doing?

How about mine?

Lets start with Christmas eve, Thursday,24.12.09
Darling Superman hates crowd. And I dragged him to Pavilion, cruising through the traffic jam. His face was distorted. But perhaps, out of love, he tagged along, fulfilling his wife's dream of seeing 'white' Christmas in KL. Damn, the parking bay was full and everybody was parking at any space they could find. I did not park. He did. Coz I was crazy excited to shop. Yes, again! I went out of the car. It took him 45 minutes to find an empty space! I was told by my office mates that they've already got their salaries. Yeay! So i hurriedly went to the ATM to draw out some cash. Dreaming of buying a bag or bangles or shoes, and surprise Superman with a special supper. But then...tut tut..tit..tit.tit...The balance in my account didn't change. Same as three days before.Ahhh??? Okay..okay...cool down bebeh...Texted my friends..and the Finance HOD....The HOD didn't replied....Shits..Well..I can't let this dampened my festive spirit. Here we go..plastic!! Zrasss zrass....Got myself two bags from Topshop and no special supper. Frustrated.. A bit happy.. and also worried. Wondering what exactly happened with my salary. Went back home before the clock striked 12 a.m, watched Christmast movies...and feel asleep.

Friday, 25.12.09-CHRISTMAS DAY
Not excited anymore due to the no-salary thingy. Made breakfast for Superman. Tuna in Mayonaise sandwich. He he. Around 11am, planned to go to TESCO to buy some groceries and chicken so that I can cook for lunch or dinner. Went to the ATM again. Fuck! The balance was the same.Grrrr!! Directly called the HOD on her hp. It took her forever to pick it up.
Me: Kak, y my money is still not in? Others said they receive it on Thursday.
HOD: Oh yours will be handled differently? We will give you a cheque on your last day. On the 31st Dec.
Me: Huh ?? How so?? I didn't know about it at all. I wish you have told me earlier. I need to use the money.
HOD: This is a normal procedure. Before this, we did the same(to other staffs who resigned previously)
WTF?? I called and check with other staffs, they were not aware of the 'procedure' at all. Nobody had that treatment previously. Totally unfair. I guess she was concerned that I might not come to work after I receive my salary. You see, I still have 4 days balance to fulfill. I hate my Friday!

Saturday, 26.12.2009
It was a cheery day. Despite my empty purse. My schoolmate, En Idzwan Adli got hitched. It was a calorie laden wedding affair. The food was superb! We had kambing golek, satay, and other food. It was held at Felda..er..couldn't remember the restaurant name. The one where you can have garden wedding. Met with other schoolmates and their wives AND little tots. Seems like everyone already have a baby or going to have one very very soon. And yes, everyone was asking whether I'm already pregnant. Oh god! Please guys.lol!
Afterwards, we went to see my MIL at Superman's eldest bro home in Keramat. My hubby's family is very2 close knit. Its a must to visit almost every weekend. At least.
At 10.15, we watched Sherlock Holmes movie at Pavilion GSC. You must be wondering what's with me and Pavilion? Well, its 10 minutes away from my apartment, I love love love the vibe, the best!! Okay, back to the movie. Superman hated it. I love it. Ha ha. Another thing he hates so much are movies with too much narrative or talks. But, you can watch with him action, horror, and comedy movie anytime. He hated the movie so bad that he fell asleep every now and then and I kept on nudging him in mad attempt to avoid him snoring. Ha ha ha!!

Sunday, 27.12.09
Spent most part of the day at my parents crib in Kajang. I yearned for the day to be longer. The prospect of working on the next day, pisses me off. Much more pissed thinking about my salary. Hopefully the management will change the decision to give me sooner.
My second nephew, Mr Ali, is so much chubbier when I see him yesterday. Two weeks ago, he seemed so tiny and fragile. I was so scared to hold him back then. But now we bonded better. His brother, Mr Uwais was very protective over him. And he threw mad tantrum when I said I wanted to bring back home his baby brother for a while. Ha ha. Lovely.

And today..I want to go back with smile on my face. Something is 'cooking' tonight. I'm in the mood to party. Yeah!!

PICTURES to BE UPDATED later..

I had that Before!

I just finished my Nasi Lemak for breakfast. It took me 45 minutes to gobble everything down. Something came up. Had to take a break for 2 times.

And then I went to Liana's blog. Darn. Today she has a pic of her running in Malakoff run recently. 7.48 km she said. And shits..her body is so kurus. Not stick thin. Nice thin. Toned you know. And I got jealous. I had that kind of body before. With round butts though. But a bit flat chested. I am almost 20 kgs heavier since when I left school. And now, I'm feeling jealous of her and guilty for eating that bloody Nasik Lemak which consists of fried chicken, boiled eggs, squid sambal and sambal kerang besides the deliciously fattening rice. Ohhhhh!! Damage done. Can I run now???

Loves Me Too Much?

Who?

1.My Hubby Superman.

He treated me to watch Avatar at Pavilion GSC yesterday.
And we bumped with my ex-boss's son & wife and Cik Mas & Mr Min, watching the same movie!! Sounds alot like a romantic night. Ha ha ha! But I love the movie. Super cool. The graphics was really really fine. We felt so real. I wonder how it feels like watching the 3D version. The tickets was almost sold out by the time Superman went to the counter.

2.My Money
I was pretty excited to go to Pavilion. Besides the movie, I wanted to check out the bag(refer to previous entry) at COACH. I really really really wanted it. Turns out...its not yet in Malaysia. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! But well, means I can still save some more RM!See..my money loves me too damn much! ;p

And I bumped into my old school friend, Julia. She's the sales girl there. I couldn't recall her. But this morning, cross check with my x schoolmate, Liana, made me realize she was actually my classmate!!Phew!

Can I Get These

I vowed not to spend my working time with nothing although
there's actually nothing for me to do. Really.
So I've been bloghopping. Websites browsing.
And made myself felt less adequate in all sorts of things.
From knowledge to fashion staples.

Its quite disturbing that I kept on wanting for more.
Well, it is normal human desire to want more
than what they have already got.

But then, when what we want is something out of reach or we simply have no idea that we should be wanting to have them until we stumble upon on it, it is quite disturbing ain't it?

Or rather, annoyed.

Why are we being blatantly fed with advertisements and articles all around. The list keeps growing. And when we couldn't cope with the acquisitions, frustrations sets in.Inadequacy continues. While new things keeps popping up. Vicious cycle.

But I'm not all negative about it. In another perspective, it pushes me to work for more. Being more observant and more creative is all it takes to be better after all. At least, I have a purpose in doing things. Like I try to get more RM so that I can afford that COACH Signature Spotlight and that ZARA brown shoes that I can't stop thinking about since last Friday. Selfish? Perhaps. I could be more angelic by spending the hard earned money for my parents or helping my hubby in household expenses. But then, will I be calm? No? Yerp. I will keep thinking about it. Restless day and night. Yes. I'm torn. But, I never claim myself an angel. Did I?LOL!

Mental Note: Love love sacrifices.

Happy Lazy Weekend

I love last weekend so so much. Why?

1) It was a 3-days weekend.

Shitty as it is..I have no more Annual Leave balance. Spent them for my wedding preps. And I have to wait until 2011 before I get paid leaves as I am starting a new job soon. So of course when granted a long weekend like this, I will appreciate it so so much. Spending more time together with Superman is all I want. I'm not sure if I can get this kind of relaxation next year. Alot is going to happen next year. I bet its gonna be a happening AND a stressful year.

2) I finally packed up my overflowing clothes into the boxes..
Yeah..I dread packing up. For anything. But, I have promised my dear Superman, to start packing(although we havn't got our new house key yet) after I broke my promise not to shop on certain stuffs(yes, my heart melt when I saw the electric blue shoes and dark blue bag!). I better fulfill them!Hehehe! It took me 3/4 of the Saturday to completely doing it as I tried each of them, just to know whether it still fits me or not. Proudly, there's only 1 small box which I TOTALLY CANNOT FIT BUT SO 'SAYANG' TO THROW IT AWAY.Lol! And, I wonder why the hell I still shop for more stuffs. I think I have enough to cover 3 months attires without having to reuse them again. But well there's always this colour and that shape that I still don't have. ehhehe...Shopaholic lingo.

3) I have a thing with Christmas movies
No, I know that I can't be celebrating Christmas like Christians does. Just that, I just love the atmosphere. And the movies. I just love how they depict the magic and everyone goes nice and get their wishes during Christmas times. So I've spent my time while packing up the clothes, watching those movies. Superman had to surrender the remote control to me and he played his PSP all day. Sorry sayang....")

4) I didn't cook at all.
Yeay! Ooppsss!

5) I found a yummy shoes but I managed NOT to grab it.
Yes. I believe I still have a strong heart. Willpower! But I kept on thinking about them. This is tragic. But which one is yummier than the other? They are at Zara. They are so practical. Especially for work and parties. Very2 comfortable. And they are my size!!Oh god.I think I'll just wait their sale period at the end of this month. Shits..I couldn't take the pics on that day to show u. And Zara's website is not doing justice to me. Let it just be in my memory. So strong though...Arghh!!


I hate looking at my apartment now. It's in a big big mess.. Boxes all over the place. I wish to settle the moving in works before the year ends. But I'm not sure whether it will matter as the developer havn't given us the green light yet. Check up few weeks back found some defects so they had to ask their contractor to mend it before we move in. And they promised us that it should be ready before Christmas, which means within this week. We'll see.

Salvation

SIX BAGS full of shopping spree.
Some souls said I will be digging for another SIXTEEN more bags.



Really??

Now I believe, I have committed sinful, suicidal deeds.

I need salvation.




Cooking for my dear Superman will do?

Shopaholic in Me

MADE A COMEBACK YESTERDAY

*_*

Counting

There's a lot of countings going on.

I count the days that I'm leaving my current office.
31st December 2009.

Although I'm feeling excited and happy, there's some sadness looming in my head. Yeah, I found great people there. We've shared alot. In fact I spent more time with them than anyone else in the course of almost two years. There's few people that I would like to personally thank you for taking care of my wellbeing. No matter what, my experience there has got its own unique impact in my future. I'm gonna miss them alot.

Mental note: Personal Thank You card.

I count the days that I will hand over my bachelor pad to my landlord.
Yes. 31st December 2009 too.

The apartment I'm leaving now was my first bachelor pad. No i've shared previously with my friends at other apartments. But this one, was my first experience signing up the lease contract myself. I lived there alone for the most part since 2008. Superman who was my fiance at the time I was moving in, helped me out alot. I love you to bits Superman. This week the house is full with boxes all over the place. We are packing up. My heart felt heavy. I reluctantly organized the stuffs. And kept on taking a break. Hoping to slow down the process. Too much histories to be boxed up. But I guess its time to move on. Making a life with my dear Superman at our brand new terrace house at Kota Kemuning Shah Alam.

I count the days before I start working in my new office.
4th January 2010.

1st January 2010, is just a mark of another year. I'm done with new year resolutions. Coz I barely look at it after 1st January. Really. But if I still have to make a resolution...its gonna be..

Work my ass out in everything. Life and career.

I hope, life's will be easier on me on 2010 so that I can really focus on my job. Well, I hope its more of a career. I'm gonna be 27 years old then. I don't need a job anymore. Its time to start having a career. My aim is to be in Management-Decision Making Committee by 35 years old.

Note to Superman: Please be understanding and trust me..I love you darling.

I count the days where I can taste a financial freedom.
Milestone: 3 years

I don't know when but I know how. I'm taking baby steps. As Mrs Yashma told me recently, you need to know your good and bad debts. It seems like I have a balance of both. But its not a good balance. I need to imbalance it to where bad debts could not outweight the good debts. Perhaps to ZERO BAD DEBTS. . And that is when I dream that my cash is overflowing. And finally the journey of a lifestyle I want will happen. Insya allah. These past few days, I'm restructuring our financial. Gearing up for better protection for our health and future. It takes alot of guts, willpower and discipline.

Note to Superman: Lets do it together!:)

All this counting has suddenly reinvent my focus in life.
And it sent my adrenaline rushing all over my body.
I'm loving every second of it. Can't wait for the next things to happen in my life.

And to you,
Yes you, my dear readers,
Look at the brighter side of things.
Keep smiling.
Have a nice day:)

Sparkling Shiny Day

No no not the weather:)

The day. My day today. A nice happy ending of the week.
I got my Letter of Offer from my future workplace. Starting January 4th.
And finally, I tendered my resignation at my current office.




Hello New Life.
Hope It Won't Bore Me to Death Again.
Suddenly the air smells sweet:)

No Holiday For Me

I just realized my new job require me to take unpaid holidays
within less than one year of service.
Its a labor law. Its cruel aite?






Unless...my boss so baik so generous and grant me the well-deserved
PAID leave?
Will it be?





So.. to soon to be married, engaged, party makers,
Heartfelt sorry if I couldn't make it to your events next year(2010)
if it falls on Friday.
Saturday events, probably going. 80% chances.
Sunday events, we'll see:)

Coconut!

Someone once told me...if one can cook with coconut milk a.k.a Santan in Malay deliciously,
he or she can cook almost anything else. Really??

All my life i had never used in my cooking. I just don't really like it or scared
that I did it badly. But since I have another mouth to feed
and he loves such cooking, guess I need to learn the trick aite??

my mission for this weekend:
Gulai telur masak kuning
eh no..
Gulai kuning telur
eh no no no
Telur masak gulai kuning.

aihhhhh ape2 je laaaa..

I'm really a novice in terms of cooking!!
Takutttt!

I Just Don't Know Why

I still dig into Weddings blogs and websites.
Envying over this dress and that dress.
Crafting in my mind on another gorgeous cake.
Updating myself with new door gifts in the market.
And still thinking of replanning my wedding.



Possibly..
I just love weddings.
I just love planning.
I just love wedding gowns and wearing one.




Can I have another wedding?

Stupid Internet+Heart flutters

Tuesday morning in office:



Sucks coz Internet sucks.
Suddenly felt a bit overwhelmed by the prospect of working in a new office.
You know the drill:
New boss, new colleagus, new environment, new makan place,
new stationaries, new jobscope, new road to workplace..yada yada..
Getting accustomed to it. And performing my responsibilities at the same time.
Overwhelming isn't it?



Been almost 2 years since I had that experience.
Starting again soon.
OMG..
Can I cope? With my marriage at stake? Will it?



trembling a bit.

Bedridden+One Month Anniversary

I am already one month married to Superman.:)


But we can't do anything much to celebrate it.
Superman's bedridden.
And we are saving for our new house.
So what can we do?





p.s: i yearn for a new bag. selfish, no??

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Not Much Words

Pictures day. Ain't saying much!



LAST SUNDAY-29th November 2009

Finally Mr Ali arrived home! Cik Yam and Uncle Yazid paid a visit.


Bonding session with Mr Uwais over Ultraman
game in Uncle Yazid's PSP.


And our-ever-there guest of honour- Mr Oren


to celebrate my big brother's belated birthday on the 23rd Nov


and to welcome Mr Ali into the family


But big brother Uwais gets to cut the cake with Wak Aie


and eat it too!Mouthful!


And some more from Mama's plate.
p/s that wall behind them was white,
newly painted for my wedding until
Mr Uwais decided to produce his masterpiece! Uwais!!!!


Uncle Yazid played father to lil Ali while Mama doing something.
Err. He's more motherly than I do? eh??





TODAY AT OFFICE

Chaos! Everybody ran downstairs!
Err...Was it??


Scared faces??


Daniah the mascott


And we were really really 'panic'. We need to snap a pic!

And more!

heheheh... It was a Fire Drill for the whole building.
We had to wait until clearance under the burning sun!
Sauna anyone??

Lifeless Wednesday

Another slow day to go through in the office.
What should I do now while waiting for my job interview at 3pm?

Looking for more ideas for my house?

Okay..let's see what I have so far. You know i have this mad love with WHITE stuffs? But when I see this picture of a kitchen, my heart skipped a beat.

Its a combination of white and black. It also has the steel and glass treatment which I think brought up the masculinity. Sexy Kitchen! I wonder whether this house belongs to a guy?
But the shiny treatment of its surface is something that I like too.
Can it be incorporated into white coloured kitchen?
I forgot where I got this pic from.

This is more my thing:

simple..neat..bright!


very not Malaysian eh?


I like the colour combination. The woody element
makes it look homey...Something my mom would love:)

Feverish+Happiness+New Home

Since yesterday, I was feeling a bit off. And as usual since little, my fever peaks at night. I could be completely talkative, energetic being daytime and bedridden, hardly speaking or eating at night.

However, I had extra strength. Howcome?
.
.
.
.
1. I watched Twilight New Moon
at Pavilion, had cupcakes and ate Hot plate mee.
2. Darling Superman accompanied me to watch Twilight!!
In fact, surprisingly, that morning he wanted to buy the tickets
himself through online. But after the web could not access
his online banking, he had to call me.
Awwwwwww schweeetttttttt! Muah muah muah!
Love you my teddy bear...XOXO!!!!

At this moment,1.54pm, I'm stuck in office. My boss is on leave since yesterday.I was left with nothing much to do. Its a blessing coz my head's throbbing while my eyes are burning and the throat's super dry.I think the fever's creeping back.But, I'm wondering whether it would be okay if I can leave early today. Superman's on MC too. He's having a bad case of flu.I think we both needs antibiotics or something. Lately my body was having a mad tantrum. Somedays, I got backpain. And out of a sudden, my blood pressure went down for no reason. And then fever comes in. Head's spinning. But luckily it doesn't come all at one time although I was never free of any pain for few months already. Worried but I don't think the MC-stingy-doc-at-panel clinic-named-Mediviron Ampang Point will give justice except for more antibiotics, painkillers and JUST time sheet. Seriously. Kedekut MC!

Currently, we are still waiting for our new house key. A 2 storey, 4 bedroom terrace house at Kemuning Utama, Shah Alam.Bought by Superman, last year.

I'm procrastinating big time. I hate packing up stuffs. There's so much to pack after living there for more than a year. Especially the heavy books and magazines. That's what happens when you
love reading so much. More of a habit than hobby.har har!

I'm imagining alot of things for the new house. From the colour of the walls, types of furnitures and decorations, and storage designs.I dreamt of a big walkin wardrobe.One of the room is going to be MY WARDROBE ROOM.But he doesn't like the idea of storing shoes near clothes due to hygienic reasons. But then I like it to be that way so that I can easily match my clothes AND shoes AND bags together in front of a big mirror when dressing up.

I love this one the most. I just love the white panel cupboards.
Divine! but, I think I'm gonna ditch the shoes display and put up a big
mirror instead. And I think the room is bigger. Yeay!

And use up boxes with polaroid pics as a more hygienic and practical
solution for shoes storage. Hey, love the ghost chair too!!

pics courtesy: this is glamourous



Do you have better ideas? I don't know about the price tag for 'my dream'
walkin wardrobe yet. But I welcome suggestions.
Or something easy DIY?
caution: I am no Paris Hilton or Kimora Lee Simmons.
But my taste is parallel but I don't have their bank accounts.
So help me please!LOL!