Neverending Land

Taking 10 minutes break. It's 7:15pm. Am at office. Superman's outstation. No reason to go back so early. No one to hug and have chocolate shake with. Hrmh..

I have a good news! I have a new cat! Not at my own home though. Besides the fact that my condo is pet free zone, Superman won't allow any fury animals to come into the house. Jeez! When he will ever allow? So, this little kitten named Junior. She reminded me of Oren because she is orange in colour too! Very tiny. But, her eyes is so round and big, like Pussy in the Boots in Shrek movie. Actually my mom found her in front of the house on last Saturday afternoon. We couldn't locate the owner or the mama cat. God sent!! Message to Oren, wherever you are: "Were you the one who dropped us this cute little creature?? I'm missing you so much! I remember you every single day. Sometimes I still cried a little remembering the last days you were in my house. Where are you?"

It is really crazy at work these days. I felt like my tasks were neverending. And although I went back very late daily,seriously,daily, I still could not finish everything. I hate to go back home knowing this and that was not completed. I'll keep thinking about it throught the night. Sometimes, when I'm about to doze off, I remembered something, and the sleepy eyes became wide open. And the next day, new tasks came in like...woosh!!!Pap!Landed in my inbox tut tut tut! Overwhelming! I couldn't remember when was the last time I felt everything was really in order. Somehow, I think this really challenge my planning ability to the max! I took on extra project as the planner, which I love. My highlight of the year. An event which will happen in December. For about 200 people of my project team. Not that I am complaining. But well, I am only a human, with two hands,working 5 days a week, more than 8 hours daily, no assistant/secretary, because I AM a secretary. Got it? What the hell, I planned my own wedding aite?? At least 1200 people attended. But well, pressure is on since this is about W.O.R.K! Lots of people to prove my worth. Ha ha.. *naseb ko la Mariam, siape suruh rajin sangat??*

Okay, ladies and gentleman, back to work!

I Wish I Can Eat Cupcake Underwater

Since I had my first cupcake, it became a public love affair. No day I would say no to cupcake.

And last Friday I finally had my first taste of Wiz's cupcake.

Terribly delicious!I'm officially an addict!

On Saturday, I had early morning call. Its the day! Dressed in shorts and shirts, we sweat ourselves out, rearranging stuffs and all sorts of other things. The movers was kind enough to tolerate our orders from morning till late afternoon. We made two trips from Wangsa Maju-Sg Long-Setiawangsa-Sg Long since we had so many things to pick up! I slept like a baby and hate to wake up the next morning.

But, we still have tonnes of  tasks to be completed. We had to do it ASAP since we have to get our place live in ready by Thursday.We are receiving our first sleepover guests! After mopping and cleaning all the kitchenwares my legs and back felt really strained. I went to the living room only to see there's a MOUNTAIN of boxes to be unpacked. Oh hell! Monday is a work day already, how can we finish them perfectly on time?? The next thing I know, the sun was already making its way to shine in the other part of the world.

I promised my dear friend Azea, to pick up her kitten for adoption by 8pm. I was pretty excited. Spent a good RM100 to buy his cage, milk, cat biscuit and sand(thinking that I only managed to buy an RM80 shoe this month:( ). To cut the story short, I arrived home, with the lil kitten(just 1 month old). I named him Kontawt(acronym of Shorty) due to his very short tail. He's all black, I could only see his eyes piercing from inside the dark cage. My heart fluttered with excitement and wary. He's so scared sitting alone without his mom and siblings, meowing at the top of his lungs! My sister who could see me and hear the deafening voice from inside the house was already contorting her face. The moment I opened the sliding door, she said "You better leave it outside!." I could sense a rejection. That follows with, "This house kan with baby...bla bla..flu, allergy, noisy,..bla bla bla...cannot eat on his own..so small...bla bla bla...who's going to feed him when you are at office?Who's going to clean his poop and urine?Send him back until he's bigger and stronger and not screaming!". My heart broke to trillion pieces.

I have to say, what she said makes sense. I thought after all the years with cats in the house, a new cat would be great after Oren left. I could feel the emptiness, a void without this fury pet animal. But the fact that he's too young and easily agitated didn't jive pleasantly. Mommy said, to adopt, it must be at least 3 or 4 months old. He still needs his mom's milk. Or else, he'll get sick easily like getting diarrhea caused by the powdered milk. I am at wits end. I want the cat so much! However, I hate to trouble my family, as well as Azea who's been taking care of him for the last month. And how can everyone sleep peacefully with him meowing non-stop? Kontawt didn't even want to drink from the container. I had to syringe fed him this morning. That makes me more convinced that he can't take care of himself yet. Oh Kontawt!!!!!!

Mommy, he's really GONE..

Breakfast in the morning, I had a conversation with mummy;

Me: Mommy, today means exactly two weeks Oren didn't turn up...

M: Yelah, he's really not coming back. He died.

Me: Mommy, he's really gone. (Felt like crying already). I miss him. But I told my friend, I want one of her new kitten. Her cat is giving birth soon. I'll take the cat a month after that.

M: Okay. Make sure you get a male cat.(kesian females!bias betul mommy ni)

No OREN...Hate the freakin' hot sun!

Last night marked the 7th day of OREN missing from my family home.
I am forced to accept the harsh fact that he died.
I don't think anybody would kidnap him, based on his frail, skeletal body.

However,  I haven't cried yet. I think subconciously, I am prepared for this. Or rather, Oren prepared me for his departure. I can't think of having a new cat just yet. His presence is still very strong. Silently, I kept on thinking about him. Every single nook in my house has a story about him. Where he slept. Where he hide himself. Where he prefered to drink. Where he was chilling out. I can see him everywhere.


Oren has a girlfriend. She's our neighbor's cat. Her name is Mickey. I think she misses him too. We found her calling him with her own kind of meowing especially in the morning. Surprisingly, Mickey is not that loud mouth. Normally, its hard for us to hear her voice. So this was the first time it happened. When Oren was around, she was always inside our house. My mom was really pissed coz we had to feed her as well using Oren's food. Technically she has her owner. But since she's always here, it so kesian pulak.Lately, she is rarely around. And the cat food is hardly touched. Hrmhh...blessing in disguise?


OREN I MISSED YOU. I REGRET  FOR NOT HUGGING YOU THAT LAST NIGHT YOU WERE AROUND. I WAS SO SLEEPY AT THAT TIME. I THOUGHT I CAN HUG YOU THE NEXT DAY AND GIVE YOU A RIDE IN MY CAR.OH OREN, I MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!



Since Thursday, I was at Putrajaya for the Hot Air Baloon Festival. It was burning hot in the morning till about 4pm. Imagine sitting there the whole day just to monitor things without actually doing anything.Ergh...

Happy and Sad

Sadly, yesterday midnight marked 3 days of Oren missing from home. I'm still praying that he will find his way back home very very soon. Maybe today???

But on happy note, Superman promised me that he will register himself with local gym. Nothing fancy like the gym I always went to. I thought of registering there myself. As a supportive wife. And lose weight together. Looking forward for a brighter, healthier and happier future. I hate the misconception that fat or plump people are lazy and unproductive. Although some are, but not my Superman.hehehe(puji husband sendiri). But I agree when they said  trimmer body projects better personality. P/S ..trim doesn't mean sickly skinny.

Note to Superman : Don't get skinny like David of The Biggest Loser Asia! A body like Legacy of So You Think You Can Dance...cantekkkkkk...nyummmmmmmmm! LOL. But the most important thing is, I just want you to be healthy...

Oren Didn't Come Back Home

2 days in a row..since Saturday.

Words can't describe how sad I am right now.

I slept with my mobile showing his pic. Fell asleep while thinking of our happy times and the last moments I saw him on Friday. But I didn't cry. Coz I choose to be strong. Hopefully he was just taking a long walk and forgot to come back. Maybe today he will wait for me, and demand me to drive him round the block. Yes, he always wait for that moment. The last time I did that was on Friday morning. He jumped into the car. I said, "Oren, please...I'm late already. Tomorrow okay?". But he didn't want to go out. So I drove him. He meowed a lot during the ride. Was he telling me something? Instead of sitting at the passenger seat like usual, he sat on my lap most of the time. Was it his last goodbye?? Oh please not!!


Oren...come back please...

AnoreXIA??

I'm really sleepy rite now. Its almost 12a.m. I'm suppose to be in bed.

But I need to share with you this weird dream I had last night. Its a mix of things. I don't know about you but I always get those dreams where you are in too many scenarios and when u woke up, you kind of lost and don't even remember most part of it.

But I remember this very part. Suddenly I was in a vet office. In case you had never been in one, rest assured, its almost the same as human clinic or hospital. Except that the patients are animals. So there was me, Oren and a doc. I don't remember how the doc look like. But I saw Oren was looking at me forlornly. And then the doc told me, exactly this : " Your cat is suffering from Anorexia disease. That is why he's avoiding food." And I didn't even question him. Accepting it like its a normal disease. Well, human maybe. But cats??? Ahh?? Is there such thing as anorexia among animals?? 

Ha ha. All day long I was laughing inside thinking about this.

Note: Oren is having better appetite today. He ate the normal cat food biscuits already! Yeay!!!

Update on Oren da Cat

My bro took him to vet yesterday. Sadly, I could not be by his side as I needed to be at work. The vet said he's having high fever. He gave him water drips 3 times as he was really dehydrated. And syringe-fed with cat foods, you know those tin types but it was blended to tiny particles so that it can be sucked in and out of syringe. When I came back I saw him sleeping on the a sofa in living room. That's a good starting sign. Whenever he's sick, he won't sleep somewhere open. We usually had to search for him at his usual hideouts. When I'm about to get my dinner, he came to me, meowing for his dinner too. Hrmh...Me being very hopeful that he can start eating as usual, poured milk and cat food on his special container. But I think he's not ready. He just look at it, and went away. I scooped him up. Said sorry. Took out his syringe and feed him. Sorry Oren. I was being too ambitious. And I shredded few pieces of chicken. At first he didn't want too. But I coax him, put them on my palms. He ate albeit slowly. Yeay!! I was very happy already. But yes, his body felt very hot. I'm praying he will be fine today. I miss seeing him disturbing me having my meal. Yeah especially if the there's chicken and fish on my plate. Oren, please be naughty again:)