I'm Back..

for jenguk2 je!

Hahah.. Yes, here I am writing to you as promised. Once in awhile.

While writing this in a freezing cold office, also while listening to raya songs, my heart kept thudding with something...nostalgic. Hard to express it by words. My tears welling up. Pfft..what the hell? But of what, I don't know. Just heavy with emotions. I think the songs are poison.

This year, a lot of unexpected things happened within my family. A lot of sad stories, interlaced with happy news.

I am really happy that my parents are still alive to this day. The biggest situation was when my mum was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. After my mum's stint in the hospital and up and down with fever, infections whatnot, I was really worried about her, and kept wondering, until when? Now, for the moment, I just want them to live as long as possible. Of course I can't control that, it's in the hand of the almighty. But nearing the Raya celebration, I can't help to wonder, what it feels like if I won't be able to celebrate it with them? You know, if they are gone too soon? Their faces and bodies have shrunken, like old people expected to be. My papa's hearing is really bad too. It seems not so long ago that they were a pair of chubby, healthy and lively people. My protective parents.The decline are too apparent this year. Ya Allah, dear merciful god, please please please shower them with good health and happiness. Shower us siblings with it too and give us never ending and heaps of rezeki so that we can take care of our parents properly.

FYI, me and Superman has passed the 1 month stay at our new rented condo. Coming to two months now, and last weekend I had my BV clan breaking their fast. It was lovely. I wrote an entry in my wordpress.com blog. I wish our next move will be our own house. Its tiring to pack and unpack. Cost us time and money too!

I can't believe I puasa just fine this year. Although sometimes, I felt like buying McDonalds and Starbucks in the middle of the day! Go Yam Go!!

So, how's your raya preparation? All done? Me? Only 1 pair of baju kurung bought. 2 tubs of biscuits given by my friends. That's it! Believe me?? :D

Till I write again in here, have fun reading my blabs in my other blog! Subscribe it will you?

Selamat berpuasa. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin :)

Another New Address

Hey peeps. I am decided to move from Tumblr.com to WordPress.com
So my new blog from herein will be : Click here

I love Blogspot.com to bits. But hell, there's no app for Blackberry! I have not much time to spent on my laptop so I really need to go mobile, handheld. And I kind of notice my ideas flows better while on the go.

RSS feed, follow me there please. I'd like to see you there.

But fret not. This blog will remain as it is. Maybe when I have free time I will post special entries just for you my blogspot followers. Hehe.

Love you! XOXO!

I'm A Ghost Here-READ!

Heys, I've been patient enough waiting for blogspot's app for Blackberry.. Why oh why Iphone has it? Thank you for the free space I got. But now I moved to a new site. Hope you guys my avid readers will RSS Feed me there or simply open your own account. Let me see whether this works.

*testing mode starts now!*

The last Weekend Here

Hey peeps,

How's your weekend so far? Tonnes of fun or lazying around:couch potato? Whatever you do keep it up coz you will never know if you ever gonna do that in the next weekends.

Oh what in the world am I blabbing about?! Mariam, stop talking rubbish!

Actually I'm this melancholic feeling. This week has been quite a drama.

1) Last week's Friday I received a call from my brother saying that my40 years old eldest sister is getting married. As shocked as I was, I felt happy for her. It was apparently an arranged marriage. She was finally solemnized, witnessed by closed family members, on Thursday, 16th June. I have a mixed feeling about this. Being a practically independent girl, with my personal stance, I would want my sister to marry out of love. But I won't tell you about the whole drama surrounding this marriage. As a little sister, I want nothing but the best for her. Knowing her personally, I believe my parents wish is somewhat the best given her circumstances. With Allah's grace, I pray that she will one day find the LOVE in the marriage and able to feel like what I feel.
I also believe his husband, whose a native Chinese from China AND an Imam, will be able to take care of her and be a loving and patient partner. Amin.

2) Today will be my last Saturday sleeping in my current condo-Greenview Condominium. As mentioned in previous post, we found a new place. Next Saturday will be the moving out day. I am excited but at the same time, sad to leave this beautiful place. In this house, we celebrated our first anniversary. In this house, my Superman, hit the big 30. In this house, we had our ups and downs, happy moments and fights too. I love the pool, in fact, that's the biggest plus point when I decided to coax Superman to rent this place. But it's okay.
I guess, the next pool is somewhat nicer too. A bit more urban feeling compared to the resort feel here.

Besides all this, I was thinking of...hrmmhh...of....err...no..i don't have anything else to think about. Haha!

These days, I strive not to clutter my mind. One thing at a time. I know, we should be multitasking. But I just want to do the multitasking thing only in working environment. Even so, I tried to lessen it. I found that by compartmentalizing things, I am able to focus better. Get what I mean? Prioritizing as well. I used to want to do everything at one go. And I felt out of breath every time.

I get jealous with friends already buying a property. Or already looking into property buying. I can't wait for that to happen. We are not ready to settle down somewhere and at the same time our tastes are somewhat higher than we can afford. Till then..rental lah dulu!

This afternoon we went to Kota Kemuning to meet MIL and BIL family. Passed our house, I mean the house we had to sell since the location is too far from our workplace. A bit of regret. The house is really nice. And we won't be able to get the same kind of house with the same value, unless we want to move to Nilai. Please...no way! Now we have to save again(really2 struggling to save! Jeez!) for the down payment money. What a feat to go through. Arghhh!

Earthquake in My Office!

I read in my UberSocial when I woke up this morning that Sumatra, Indonesia was hit by a massive earthquake. I didn't think much until I read my friend's status update saying that he felt that the office was shaking. It was 8.08am. I had yet to reach the workplace(ha...kantoi!)

I can't remember when..few hours after that I felt like my head was spinning as if somebody shaked my head. And I looked around and nearly everybody stood up and look around. OK, it was REAL! My first tremor experience. Gotta say, awesome! I mean for the out of body experience, not thinking of the dissastrous impact it would cause.

After lunch, as I was about to focus on my work, once again it happened! And this time it was a bit more obvious than the previous one. OMG! My colleague was frowning scared! But I guess because everybody knew that there's no such thing in Malaysia due to our geographical position, we went back to normal work routine.

Update from The Star Online; http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/6/14/nation/20110614094631&sec=nation

Think if my office's in Indonesia or Japan I would have run for my life!

Now I am Finding the Time...

Hey peeps,
Ahhhh...it feels so good to be able to find time to write again. Actually I am still in office and finished my works. And somehow I felt the strong urge to write. Err..le patron, puis-je réclamer des heures supplémentaires ?

And as usual, I have no concrete plan for my writing. It's all jumbled up. Let me think....
1)Moving out and into a new condo...AGAIN!
Oh yes, this is my 4th move since the beginning of my relationship with Superman. My current owner sold his house and gave us ONE month notice to move out. We searched high and low for THE PLACE, and we found it after diligent day and night googling and asking around. Actually this place, called Aman Height, we have already viewed it before we moved into current home. But somehow, we didn't like it last time. God knows what makes us gugugaga this time around. Guess because of the superb facilities with OK price! We got our keys last night and suppose to start packing up tonight. Erkk! Just a gist of what's waiting us;

2)Jalan-jalan Non-Stop
Almost every week, I since March, I was on the road. Be it on personal or work purpose. It was a nice getaway, especially when I can claim every dime spent, but when I get back into the office, the pressure is somewhat the same or more. Enjoy my travel pics and lil explanation I :)

 Vietnam War Museum-Some souls are too devil to be called human.

Look what they did to these innocent men.

                                             Vietnam, Mekong River-with my travel buddies

 On board Sapura 3000 vessel- I hate the way I look! So gemuk and senget.

Singapore, Universal Studios-Where I felt magical and spend till drop

There's few more pictures but I don't have the time to upload now.

3) I never lose a pound and kept adding

Surprised? Not? Yeah me too! Everything doesn't fit properly now. I am already obese. Clap clap clap clap! It's depressing but I guess my desire to eat surpass the desire to get thin.See that face at Universal Studios? Compare it with this 2008 pic.

 Can you still recognize me???

Ahh...talk to you again in next entry. For now, new tasks landed in my inbox. Toodle doo!

It's My Escape

I have too many wants in this world, as what my sister said once. But you can't have it all.
I couldn't agree more.

At this moment, I just want peace. At workplace, at home, on the road, and in my mind.

Things got awry lately, unintentionally. My ex colleague kept telling me, "Chill lah! Pedulik kan je". My answer "How to lah?Everyday there's always somethin happen!"

Although I am not telling you what exactly happen, not a bit, I just want you to know, things are not really smooth these days. I am working very hard at office. Although I feel tired at times, I feel good inside. It's my escape from other parts of my life. Everytime I came back home, my back ached, my shoulders tight, my legs almost wobble, but it just feel good, empowered, and rewarding. Workaholic. But I am happy.

However, deep in my heart I worry what will happen to my marriage? How do I want to be ready to have kids soon? I know the clock is ticking. And my guilt is thickening. Guilty to dear Superman. I am too addicted with the rush of adrenaline. I simply can't imagine myself changing diapers. Not yet. Not yet. Oh, I am supposed to be maternal at this age, right?

Oh, just lets go back to work.